Hello from Cali

I am so happy to be home. My gramma is enjoying my company! I am soaking up sun! I even went blonde! So thought I would update all on my progress....

Ok, I watched a show on Discovery Health called Jackie's Story... she was 627 lbs and had gastric. No one wanted to do her surgery because most have a weight limit of 400? I never knew that! I am glad she found someone and I watched the show and felt it was very informative since she had such a rough recovery you get a feel of what can happen. I saw the Dr.. Primary... on Tuesday. I have no insurance so had to pay at a health clinic in town. I was surprised they had a sliding fee and so 30.00 a visit is all I pay. Some of my tests are covered in that. I was so nervous but she was a good Dr. She said I am not able to work and said permanently... but we know that is only till after I get surgery and become a loser;)! I completed my SSI application and the paperwork required for the state to determine if I am disabled for purpose of getting MediCal. I completed all the authorization forms so they can request my records. I do have high blood pressure but I advised her of my anxiety and she gave me meds and said she will f/u in 2 weeks and if it is still high then I will need meds for blood pressure too! :(  I really feel God is trying to get my attention. Everytime I think I will just give up and stay my size... I mean I don't have to bad of health... God does something to wake me up. My health is bad... who am I kidding. I am now riding the scooter to shop in Walmart. I never thought it would come to this and thank God that so many stores have scooters! They are a blessing! Anyways, I still have a ways to go. But my day is coming! Once I get my MediCal the Dr supervised diet is only 3 months but... I am going to ask her to start that now so when I am approved I will have met the requirements and can submit asap for approval. I know I will be approved because it is medically necessary. I just have to make sure I don't leave any stone unturned. I was not sure about seeing a new Dr but she didn't even flinch to help me and she made me feel at ease. She wants to do more tests to see why I get blood clots. I am on meds for depression and feel better than I have in many months. I truly feel that my time is coming! Also, my sister is at like 190 or maybe less now and I saw her picture today! Amazing! Today was a very happy and emotional day for me. Anyone with advice on helping this along let me know! :)

Mel, good to hear from you. Here's Doctor Bob's free psychological advice! like with everything in life it's very easy to be over whelmed by the entirety of a situation but if you compartmentalize the negatives it's easier to digest. Much like studying for a exam and I know you and Sheila know about that! If you try to digest the entire class from start to finish the first day it's not going to be pretty you'll be on the floor with a empty half gallon of Ben & Jerry's sobbing and not getting anything out of it but a sore stomach!! But if you take page by page put it into context you'll turn around at the end happy you went through it. You have so many positive things going on in your life right now, your getting hooked up in the system to get your long awaited WLS, your home around family, your well educated, your a fighter, the weathers great and heck your BLOND! Like we do with WLS take your before pictures and after to remind yourself where you came from, in this case do it on paper the negatives verse the positives and when you feel blue remind yourself of the good fortunes you have. Best of Luck in Cali I know you'll keep us updated. C'ya Bob

Thanks!!!