Being overweight SUX!
I had to run errands today for the bday party I had for my two sons (theyre 5 days apart) and I am WORN OUT! All i did was get a prescptn filled, go to walmart and gamestop and then to my moms for the party. THATS IT! And just waiting in line at walmrt I was sweaty, feeling nasty (even tho I had a shower right before I left the house!) and I feel like people look at me and thing I look disgusting, all sweaty and hot and FAT....God I just HATE it. I get to the car and im out of breath and even sweatier now and just want to lay in some a/c and cool off and catch my breath. I hate being fat. Yet what did i do at the party? Ate cake and icecream ....and dern it it was GOOD! And then I think, after surgery I cant eat that. I cant enjoy things like that. And I love food. Its a pleasure and I do endulge in it more than i should obviously.
Ive also been over to the RNY forum and its scaring me. Everyone over there seems to have had problems either during or after or BOTH (surgery that is). I dont know what to think now. I want to do it, I want to be comfortable and healthier and feeling BETTER by this time next year SO BAD but imscared I will have problems, Im scared I will have LIFE LONG problems, or nearly die on the table...or....or ...ugh......
Breathe!!
You will find that the people having problems are going to post about them. How often do you read a post saying "hey, I'm not having any problems!" Most of us do very well and we just post about the wonderful things happening to us.
Just think, by this time next year you could be moving so much easier and the heat won't bother you. You may not be able to eat cake and ice cream, but chances are you won't even want them next year!
At 2 1/2 years post-op, I eat birthday cake, and wedding cake, and shower cake, and... I just don't eat a huge piece and I don't even want the ice cream. I even find the icing disgustingly sweet so I scrape it off and leave it. All I want is a little bite of the cake so that's what I have.
Susan (AKA bilsrib)
300/135/135 - Plastics February 2008 - Dr. Lois Wagstrom
P E A C E - It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart.
I had my surgery and I haven't regretted it to this day. I have not had any complications or problems. I considered all of the foods that I wouldn't be able to eat after this surgery and that's what made me want this even more. I love a self challenge. But on the other hand this surgery is not a magic bullet and it does come with a lot of responsibility and it also takes a lot of mental changes to be able to survive this new lifestyle.
Think about it real hard and ask yourself if you want: to be healthier, happier, have a longer life span, to be able to do things you can't do now and any other questions that you can think of.
I have to admit, I thought long and hard and I realized that yes, I have enjoyed foods all of my life some good and some not so good for me and I know how things taste and then I thought, is the taste of that food worth living the life that I had or is it not and I concluded that since I had indulged and overindulged in foods all of my life and they had contributed to my bad health and looks that it was time for a change and I wanted this so badly that I went for it. I kept a positive outlook on the whole process and I still do.
My mother made chicken and dressing the other day and she and my youngest brother overindulged in it, I wondered briefly how it tasted but then I thought to myself, you're not missing anything that you haven't eaten before.
No one knows what it's like for me to be able to go for lengthy walks and not have the pains that I used to have or sweat so that it looks like I had just gotten out of the shower, or even be able to cross my legs once again. Nothing in this world ever tasted so good to me as the new lifestyle that I have and the clothes that I am able to wear again and those that I couldn't wear. I'm seeing sizes that I saw in my 20's and it feels great. I'm also able to wear that pair of New Balance that I tried to wear a year or so ago and couldn't........now that tastes delicious.
I really want to encourage you! And always speak life in to any situation that you are going thru and it shall be.
Yes, some of us will run into problems along the way but hey, trouble don't last always. Those of us that do run into problems post them in hopes that someone can help or hoping that someone else has experienced the same thing and can be of help, it isn't meant to scare anyone, but to inform.
Take care and God Bless,
Diane
What I can remember now is how loose my clothes are fitting and that I can tie my own shoes, walk a mile in 25 minutes, all most cross my legs, etc. These are things I can see in the mirror and feel. These are long lasting things. How long did that cake and ice cream stay with you? My husband (who has always hated eating out) used to this about eating "why spend all that money when in a few hours you just poop it out anyway!!!!" Now that may be a little crass but it has helped me when I have been tempted to eat something I know I shouldn't. Truly the food won't stay with me long, except in weight gain, but if I do the right thing with my WLS my new lifestyle will be mine until the day I die. I prefer that.
As for dying on the table during surgery. It sounds like your life right now is miserable for you and you hate it. Why not try the WLS way, even with the very small risk, and see what a better life you can have. Besides, people we are MO are at risk every day.
We have all been where you are right now. You can move forward to a better world. You just have to wrap your mind around it and move forward.
If you are a praying person, ask God for help in overcoming your addiction to food. I did and he has helped me to not crave some of the foods I loved.
Good Luck and remember to BREATHE!!!
Ba-boo