Bummed out

Where do I start. I am at a point to where I want something to eat all the time. I don't know what the heck is going on, all this started about 2 weeks ago and seems to be getting worse. I can't go in for another fill, due to the loss of my insurance as of 05/01. I am getting in my water no problem and I'm trying to get my protein in. I find myself wanting more and more. I find myself snacking more. I am stressed about so much right now it is unreal, so I'm sure that has something to do with it. It is just suprising that I can eat what I can. I feel like I am retaining fluid, I can't sleep, my kness hurt so bad I feel like I have vice grips on both of them. I am having to use my chair just about all day around the house. I'm just frustrated with the whole situation. I thought with Phil getting better that would help with me, but it hasn't yet. I'm just hurt all over and don't know what to do about it. I am taking my meds like I am suppose to. I notice myself worrying tremendous about everything. I mean I have always been a worrier, but this is nuts. I could really use some words of encourgment right now. I know that there are so many out there that are dealing with things of there own. Maybe it's just a rut and everything will get better for all of us real soon. I hope everyone had a great and safe Memorial Day. Thanks for letting me vent. Cheryl

Cheryl,  It seems you are up pretty early this morning.  Were waiting for me?  LOL!!!  Anyway, I understand exactly what you are going through, it seems several of us are struggling along that same path!  My only advice is to hang in there...This too shall pass!  This poem has got me through many a struggles, and I hope it brings solace and peace to you!

This Too Shall Pass

If I can endure for this minute Whatever is happening to me, No matter how heavy my heart is Or how dark the moment may be- If I can remain calm and quiet With all the world crashing about me, Secure in the knowledge God loves me When everyone else seems to doubt me- If I can but keep on believing What I know in my heart to be true, That darkness will fade with the morning And that this will pass away, too- Then nothing in life can defeat me For as long as this knowledge remains I can suffer whatever is happening For I know God will break all of the chains That are binding me tight in the darkness And trying to fill me with fear- For there is no night without dawning And I know that my morning is near. ...Helen Steiner Rice

Cheryl,             Call Dr. Morton's office and see what can be done, I am not sure, but just check.  I would cut out all carbs, they make you hungry, up your protein, this will help make you feel full and not want to snack.  However, if you must snack, grab raw veggies, just make sure that you chew chew chew, I would not eat any fruit right now as it is full of natural sugar and this will make you crave carbs!! Try these few things and I will keep you in my prayers!! Shelia

Cheryl, I think it is great that you are not trying to handle this on your own.  I also think that a lot of us are struggling right now?  The time of year???  I don't know.  I just wrote the other day that I was feeling hungry and deprived for the first time.  I did increase my protein and my water and that has helped.  But, I agree with Shelia, call your surgeon.  Even if you don't have insurance, they might be willing to help somehow.  It never hurts to try. Marilyn

Cheryl,  I know it's hard and it's tuff especailly when you are dealing with stress the old habit comes in full force to go to food. I second what Shelia said up your protein and stay away from carbs !!! The more carbs you eat the more you want they are the enemy !!!!!! You can do this. You have come this far don't you dare give up now girl !!!! I am rooting for you !!!!!!

Cheryl, At this point I would probably get myself into therapy. I know you may not be able to do this without insurance but it sounds like the problems are underneath that need to be dealt with. You know I haven't had surgery yet but I'm still on the 6 month diet. It has been harder these last few days and I"ve made some bad choices. What has helped me is to be accountable to someone for what goes into my mouth. I keep a food diary and then post what I eat daily, along with the carb count and calories on my diabetes group. I could post it here but I am still able to eat some things that might tempt someone who has already had surgery. Anyway, writing everything down might help you get a handle on things. It is also something to do to fill the time so that you arent eating out of boredom. I really hope you get settled in and back in control. Hang in there. Blessings, Karen

Cheryl, I can understand what you are going thur to some extent I was just talking with my Dh the other day about summers are really bad for me.  I really need the break for rest time, but I tend to eat all day long...... I am praying that things are different this year.  I am working out 4 days a week, which is something I have never done before.  I am going to keep a food dairy on my refrigerator and log everything that goes in my mouth during the day.  These are things that I am going to do.  I agree with some  of the others and would call your Dr and just see what they suggest.  The biggest thing is that you are aware of it and are trying to come up with some solutions to help  you.  I will be praying for you. Melissa

Cheryl, have you ever been to (or considered going to) Overeaters Anonymous?  They have a website and even have online meetings. jane o

Cheryl I so understand the temptation of food and please take the advice about the carbs because I started with crackers and had to get rid of them but I grabbed some cheetos the other day and just about lost it because I wanted a whole bag but I had to rein my self in. If you have access to a pool then that will take pressure off of knees and help strengthen them as well. Water walking is excellent exercise, 30 minutes of water walking is equivalent to almost 2 hours on land but that is fast walking. There are exercises that you can do in the chair and get your heart rate up. I used to teach water aerobics and would substitute teach a class called Sit to be Fit at the Y. You mentioned about your stress, anxiety and worrying maybe you should talk to the dr. about some anti-anxiety meds for right now. Since you don't have insurance right now, call some agencies that deal with people in need of healthcare and they will find somewhere for you to go to get your medical needs handled. Also the Y has a program called The Open Doors Program, they look at your financial situation and you only pay a small fee a month and many cases it is free. I'll pray for you sweetie. ((hugs))

Hey Cheryl! Sorry for the late reply... I've been healing and not at the computer much. You are in my prayers indeed because I think you are consistently supportive of this board and just such a good hearted person. I know you have been under stress and that makes food choices harder. But, I know that you can get control of it. I'm with Rita on the swimming pool idea. I've always loved swimming as exercise because of the fact that you feel lighter in water and thus can do more. Plus, the sun is so very good for you. I think some were talking about it upping your vit D levels. I'm thinking about you and praying for you!