Just wanted to Check-in and say HI!!

First, I want to welcome all the newbie’s, congratulate all of the new LOSERS and for those that are about to have surgery, I will be praying for you!!! I have had some concern as to where I have been, besides dealing with the situation with Dale, now that he is out of school, hopefully he will be able to heal some, I just pray that when next year starts, since I had to file a police report that this child will grow up and leave Dale and others alone.

 Well for those that have inquired, I have been lurking lately, I really thought I would have been posting more since I am out of school, but I have had a lot going on around my house trying to get ready for surgery, as well as, trying to get ahead a little in school before surgery, but concentrating has been difficult.  I have been really scared about this surgery and doubting by self a lot, not sure but for some reason 8-10 hours in surgery scares me along with the tough recovery.  Yes, I have been talking to people and I know it is normal, but it has been hard to put it in prospective that this is the "final stage" to my weight-loss journey and NOW this will begin the forever stage, keeping it off.  I know this may be hard for those that are either just beginning or for those that have not begun, but being in my position is something that I have strived for all my life and now that it is here is actually very scary, I have other things in life that I will need to focus on, but maintaining my weight will always be a priority in my life but, for some reason actually reaching a life-long goal is terrifying!!! June 4th is right around the corner and my last day of wor****il September 2nd will be this Thursday the 29th, I can't believe it is actually this close, Please keep me in your prayers and remember that you all have been a vital part in my success and even after my plastics, you will continue to be my support for the maintenance of my journey.  One of the things that I ask that you keep in your prayers would be for the headaches that I have been suffering with since December goes away.  I have not mentioned it, but I have been having severe headaches with a pain from 4-10 on a daily basis, I wake up every day in pain about a 4, I have had a few good days, but most are bad.  They have done everything and when I say everything, I think I have been poked, prodded, scanned, injected, you name it and they have done it to me with no help.  They are so bad that I have a large Rx for a narcotic pain medication that I do not like to take unless I can’t tolerate the pain anymore.  The neurologist now thinks since I have had such severe infections from the excess skin that the infection in my blood is causing the headaches, so we are hoping that my surgery will stop the pain I am having, otherwise in July, I will undergo Botox injections for the pain.  Please keep this in your prayers as well, because the pain that I have been suffering with daily has been difficult to deal with, especially with as much that I do!!!!

I love you all!! Shelia