Attention Kmart shoppers blue light special

hey all, tonight was the first time since 1986 that I was able to get into a size 12 actual pair of jeans with no elastic. I didn't even have to lay on the bed to zip them up. I was standing and they slid right up and I could fasten them and they came right to my ankles as I have to buy pants in a petite size. Gosh was I ever excited. They're Faded Glory from Wal-marts. I got them at a thrift/food bank center. I was talking with a friend of mine that works there. I saw the jeans and told him I would try them on and if they didn't fit I would bring them back. Now I owe them $1 for the jeans. I managed to even get a long sleep warm shirt that buttons down the front and it's a small size. I couldn't believe it. Especially since I am doing everything in my power to not lose any more weight but to add a few pounds because of the leukemia. I am not even working out much as I am still healing from breaking my tail bone. I don't look like I weigh 150 lbs. I am so thin in my fingers, wrists, face, and no butt to fill out the jeans. I'm not even get 20 ozs of water in me a day as it's so hard to swallow anything. I have a huge lump just under my right jaw pressing on my throat. Had a CT scan done on it Thursday after just seeing my Ears, Nose, and Throat Dr. but the flab is also shrinking, It does worry me because of the leukemia and the cancer. Right now they are just treating the leukemia until all the tests come back from all the biopsies. Monday morning the left armpit lymph node is being removed, and two of the hard knots are coming out per my oncologists orders for my surgeon. She says the knots are more often in the Acute Myeloid Leukemia not in my Chronic Myeloid Leukemia. So she's really worrying too. She is researching regarding what my options are going to be if I have to go regular leukemia, then she can't treat the leukemia, and if she treats that, then she can't treat the cancer. One or the other. Both diseases can kill me if one or the other isn't treated. I ask that you keep me in your prayers that the cancer in the left lymph node hasn't started spreading. Two weeks ago I had a Ct scan just on the abdomin and pelvic to make sure it hadn't spread to those lymph nodes. But it's just a matter of time before it does because the leukemia I have is cancer in the blood and just the large bones in the body like the lower spine, tail bne, and hip joints. But with me getting smaller, I am holding so far for 4 days at 150, but that's where I weighted tonight as, I'll check it in the morning before I eat anything to see if it has gone down more. I'm not worried about the surgery, just at what decision they will decide to put me thur. Whether it's regular chemo or the chemo pills for the leukemia. It's weird, when they give you regular chemo it goes thru the blood system, so I don't see why it wouldn't help with the leukemia seeing as it's cancer of the blood. I always though that chemo was chemo. But it's not, if you have lung cancer, that's the type of chemo you get, just for the lungs, same as with the breasts or prostate area. Each body part has a different type of chemo to treat that area only. Anyhow, I just wanted to tell you about the jeans. Now I know what I can buy in jeans without having to try them on first. At least for the time being. I am off to for some very needed beauty sleep. Y'all be good and know I love each and everyone of you. Kathy

KAthy--- I do keep you in my prayers,,,,, YOu are going thorugh so much... HANG TOUGH SISTER----GOD WILL SEE YOU THROUGH THIS! MARIA