I keep losing.....

Hi, before I took my shower, I stood on my scales in my birthday suit and it showed I was 191. That's 61 more pounds to goal. I don't see my surgeon until July 26. But my clothes keep getting bigger. I can wear something last week and this week they fall off me. I wonder why? I'm sorry I haven't been on here much over the last few days. I was attacked in my home Sunday evening. The pain pills keep knocking me out, I just wish they would make my head quit hurting. I have a broken rib in my back so it hurts to try and take a deep breath or cough. I also have a hematoma where the rib on the left side in my back where the rib is broken. The ER couldn't wrap my ribs because I have COPD. I have a split on my forehead that has three stitches in it. At the hair line all the way back to my crown hurts from a contusion, at the hairline is fracture and a hematoma. The hematoma has to be watched as it could turn into a clot, I just know it hurts to wash my hair, to bru**** and constantly pounds. I had to fill out a warrant for the assult and battery against my best friends daughter. I also have to get an order of protection. I don't want to do this as she has a 2 yr old daughter and a 7 month old daughter. But the sheriff said I had no choice. I would rather see her get anger management therapy, probation, and if she has to be arrested, then be put on house arrest. I have lived in my home for 2 nights in fear. They say to look at everything when you are being attacked, but I couldn't even turn on my power chair and run into her, I couldn't see clearly and felt like I was going to pass out from her repeatedly fist blows to my head, the blood was splattering every where. I had to spend 12 hours in the ER, and every hour they would make sure I wasn't asleep. It has been a nightmare the last few days. I found out last night that my grandson who is almost 4 will seem fine for a couple of days then his fever will shoot up to 105 and have to be taken back to Vandy. They can't find out what is causing this. On top of all this, I still can't find a place to move to at the end of the month. This stress has kept me in tears for 2 days. I even called my shrinks off hours therapist and promised I would contact my therapist today. No I am not suicidal, just terrified. Keep these matters in prayer. Thank you, Kathy

Hon, I don't know where to begin. HUGGS! I wish I were near you so I could lend a hand or something. We need good people down here in Chattanooga. Please feel better soon. This person obviously has problems. You did the right things taking out the warrant and such. Take care of yourself. Bar the windows and doors. Like I said I send you huggs. Beth B. in Chattanooga

Hi Beth, thank you. I now know what set her off. I have to go to the Rutledge court house tomorrow and pay the court costs and fees to drop the charges. I don't want her to go to jail. She and I were both mislead, and I don't feel right about all this. Her grandparents who I rent from and her mother is my oldest and dearest friend of 30 years. They have told her to not come near me, they were all angry at what she did to me. She feels bad about it too, she feels remorse about causing me a lot of pain, and the fractures. They will heal, but this is something she will remember for a long time to come. Still at 191, just 61 more lbs to go to my goal. Love Kathy 277.5/191/130 surgery/current/goal.

Kathy, I know you don't know me from a hill of beans....but I am in Knoxville and am more than willing to help in any way I can. Also, I know a few people *****nt houses and trailers. If you could let me know what you are looking for maybe I can help there. Misty

I'm looking for a 1-2 bedroom, w/d connection, ground level, and accepts Section 8 rental assisstance. I am looking in the Morristown, Bean Station, Rutledge, and Jefferson City area. I am hoping to find something by the end of the month, and if the place won't be available until Aug. 1 that is okay too. I just have to move out of where I am before July 15. Thanks, if you hear of anything please let me know. Most of my Dr.'s and my Oncologist are in the Morristown area. So far I am not having much success. Either the price is higher then I can afford, or no w/d connection, or doesn't accept Section 8 rental assisstance. I can only go as high as $394 that includes rent, electric, and water. So I am having a major problem. I have found one place in Morristown that is a 1 bd 1 bath, w/d connection, will allow my cat for $100 deposit even though she's declawed. Window air, plus I have one in my bedroom now, so it should be okay. She wants $325 for the rent, $300 for deposit, they pay the water, I have to pay the electric. It's off A J Hwy in Morristown. I am hoping to be able to see it tomorrow. Thanks for the offer, Love Kathy

Kathy, I have spoken to everyone I know for a rental but everyone I know rents in Knoxville...... I know you need to be close to your doctors though. How was the rental you looked at yesterday?

Kathy, the weight loss is great but the other is terrible!!! I'm so sorry. You take care of yourself and stay on guard............Terry

Hi Terry, thanks on the weightloss, stress, nerves, and being beaten up, the pain and queasiness will diffently cause you to lose weight. It hurts too much in my head and rib cage, but my heart hurts more. I just wish none on it had happened. Tempers are running high right now. I have to go see the judge tomorrow to drop the charges. I don't know how much it will cost me in court costs or fines. And it's up to the judge whether he will allow it to be dismissed or serve the warrent. I just want it all to go away. I know it sure would be a mistake to have her put in jail for a miscommunication on all of us. I slapped her face, she pounded in my head, so we would all lose in the end. This is something that both of us will have to live with and her being taken away from her two daughters ages 2 yr, and 7 months isn't right. She's a great mom for being 18, and I know she didn't mean to hurt me. I've been best friends with her mom for 30 years, we have been there for each other all these years, and never had a problem. This mess is just that a mess. Yes I am hurt physically, but my heart inside is breaking in too from the stress and pain that it came to this. I don't want to hurt her or the family, my landlord is her grandpa, is willing to help me with the court costs and fines if the charges are dropped. I don't know how much it will be until I go before the judge. Please keep this in your prayers. Thank you, Kathy

OMG Kathy!!! I wish you would have called, you shouldn't be alone right now. I can arrange to take a few days off and come out there to help. Just say the word and I'm there for you! I'm glad the sheriff made you press charges. As far as her kids, if she has that much of a problem with anger management and physical violence, how safe are her children with her. I'm all for keeping a family together but not at the risk of children getting hurt. And you and I both know that emotional abuse and stress can be just as damaging to those children as if she raised her hand to them. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandson, we'll say prayers for him and for you! Toni - seriously, call me. I'll shoot you an email with my number.