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Hello Everyone, I have been having some rough days. Today is my best day since surgery. Thank god I had no complaications. Just trying to get my water in now. Today, It feels like some of my swelling is down b/c I am able to drink more. I was going through the stage of "what have I done". Eugene kept telling me, you will fell better in a couple of days. Of course, I am fighting the holidays blues. I want to eat soooo bad. I want a soda so bad. Eugene is right there saying "no, you get to stick with the liquids". I do stick with the diet but when you see others with those thing, naturally you want them too. Right now I mostly eats alot of soups. My jp drain is draining well but I am ready to get it out. I did not have much pain after surgery. I did use the pump to make sure I would not. That was my best friend until they took it. I beg the nurse to let me keep it for two more hours. She said "I can't, it was suppose to be out already". I said one hour than. She said OK. well she went on lunch break and I kept it for about two hour. Hitting the button every chance I got. I was reall afraid that the pain was going to hit all at once. I had nothing to worry about about , no pain. Until this day, No pain. Will update tomorrow once I come back from the docs.

Welcome Back!! It is soo great to hear from you!!!! I'm glad you are doing well. I have been wondering how you were doing. Not much longer and I'll be joining you!! Sounds like you have a great cheerleader there helping you out.

Glad you are doing well Scorro. All of what you are going through is natural and you will feel better soon. Let me know if you need anything - even a shoulder to cry on! Susann

Hey, Girl Eugene's right. (He's terrific.) You should be feeling a little better each day from now on as you heal and adjust. Each of us is different. Some breeze through surgery and some have a very rough time. I'm glad you're not doing too badly. I think we all go through the "what have I done?" stage. Mine only lasted until I was back on my feet and then I've never looked back. It took me a little while to recuperate, but I'm a little older and diabetic, so I wasn't too surprised. That's why I always shush post-ops who want to go on and on about their terrible experiences. There's no way to predict how someone's surgery will go and a positive attitude is SO important. Why should they want to try to scare people facing that surgery? I really don't know what they're thinking. It's a hard enough decision to make to have it in the first place without hearing horror stories. This part doesn't last very long. Really. And as the pounds drop off and you feel better and better, it will become easier and you won't find your mind and body so at odds. This is the attitude I took about food: I ate pretty much whatever I wanted for 49 years. That's alot of groceries. There were lots of foods that I loved and didn't want to give up, but none of them changed my life for the better or made me happy for more than a few minutes. Food wasn't worth passing up a chance for better health and a longer and happier life. I made the right choice for myself and there aren't many people *****gret the surgery. Remember, we're all here for you. You've seen and heard us all at the table - this is really working for us and it will work for you too. You're going to be just fine when your body recovers from the shock it's been through. Tuesday will be one year for me. No regrets, and so thankful I was able to do it. With all my health problems, I don't know where I'd be right now without it. I know I would have gained weight from the medicine I was on. I had a real WOW moment yesterday when I pulled my pre-surgery jeans out of my bottom drawer and put them on. There was room for another person in there, and they were tight a year ago. In my mind I know I've lost over 100 pounds, but until I put those pants on, it just never hit home to me. Keep taking good care of yourself. Can't wait to see you when you feel well enough. Love, B

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR 1-YEAR ANNIVERSARY, MS BARBARA!!!! YOU ARE NOW OFFICIALLY A "LONG-TIMER"! BRING YOUR "FAT" PANTS TO THIS THURSDAY'S LCBBuddies MEETING. WE COULD ALLLLLLLL USE ENCOURAGEMENT! I KNOW JUST GETTING OUT OF THE 26-28s GAVE ME A HUGE BOOST, SO I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO TRY ON YOUR PANTS FROM 105 #s AGO!!!!!!! WOWOWOWOWOWOW!!!!!!!!!! GOD BLESS YOU DAWN & NICK

Hi Scorro, I'm so happy to hear that you did not have any complications. I read your post that you have had a couple rough days. You will be fine, just get plenty of rest and follow the doctor's orders. You know we are here for you. Call me, we need to talk anyway. I went home for the holidays and walked all the way from Flatman village thru Carver village and you know I was thinking about you. I could not remember which street you lived on when you lived there. I even called Eugene's cell a couple of times and he had voice mail on. Take care. Merlon

Hey Scorro, We met the night at Applebee's when they cancelled the meeting, I was about 4 weeks out, now I am 8 weeks out today and I do feel better. It hasn't been easy, but at the same time it has helped me appreciate myself better. Eating right now is still hard to do, but you will find favorites, the liquid part is boring, but I switched to soft pretty fast (1 week) and then when I got to eat "real" food, I thought it was great. It is hard to wrap my head around the not being able to eat, but I think this is something we have to learn is a part of us now. We go out to dinner a lot, but we have usually been going with friends and that makes it easier because I can put my attention on them instead of what I can't eat. I'm fortunate in that I don't get hungry so I just have to remind myself to eat, but I'm sure you know the internal timeclock that tells you when to eat, well it is muted now, but when I do realize it is time to eat, then I have to eat because my mind won't stop telling me to, (it is very supportive, (my mind)). Anyway just go with it and give yourself a chance to heal and get used to who you are now, you are different and you don't have to rush to be like anyone else, not even for yourself. It really does get better each day. Dona

JUST CHECKED OUT YOUR PROFILE UPDATE ... WAITING TO SEE HOW MASTER SOLAR DID THIS MONTH, BUT YOU DID FANTASTIC! YOUR LOSSES ARE VERY CONSISTENT, WHICH IS FANTASTIC, MS MERLON! SEE Y'ALL THURSDAY! GOD BLESS Y'ALL DAWN & NICK

NICK & I ARE SO GLAD TO HEAR THAT YOU ARE DOING SO WELL! ONCE YOU START SEEING THE WEIGHT MELT OFF, YOU WON'T WANT THOSE THINGS THAT OTHERS EAT. I'LL TELL YOU HOW TO CURE YOURSELF OF THE "I WANT TO EAT" SYNDROME ... HAVE EUGENE (GOOD MAN TO KEEP YOU ON THE "STRAIGHT & NARROW PATH"!) TAKE YOU OUT TO DINNER IN A RESTUARANT. HAVE YOUR SOUP & THEN LOOK AROUND & WATCH PEOPLE EAT. IT WILL GIVE YOU THE STRENGTH TO NEVER WANT TO EAT "NORMALLY" AGAIN. I SAT IN LA HACIENDA'S RIGHT AFTER SURGERY & COULD NOT BELIEVE HOW WE "SHOVEL" FOOD DOWN OUR THROATS ... IT IS PRETTY AWFUL TO WATCH ... LIKE PIGS AT A FEEDING TROUGH. &, TO THINK THAT I ATE THAT WAY FOR 30 YEARS OF MY LIFE. WHEN OTHERS HAVE A SODA OR A FOOD YOU USED TO LIKE, REMIND YOURSELF THAT YOU WILL LOSE POUNDS & REGAIN YOUR HEALTH ... &, BE ABLE TO DO SO MUCH MORE JUST BY GIVING UP THAT ONE INSIGNIFICANT THING. INSTEAD OF TELLING YOURSELF, "I WANT TO EAT" THIS OR THAT ... TELL YOURSELF ... "I WANT TO DO" THIS OR THAT SO THAT YOUR FOCUS IS NOT ON FOOD ... IT'S ON ACCOMPLISHING GOALS & PARTICIPATING IN ACTIVITIES ... & BEING ABLE TO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST. I'M TELLING YOU ... THE SECRET TO SUCCESS IS ALLLLLLLLL IN YOUR ATTITUDE & FOCUS! ONCE YOU GET ON THE BOARDS A WHILE, YOU CAN PICK OUT THE ONES WHO WILL SUCCEED & THE ONES WHO WILL GIVE UP & FAIL. IT'S ALL IN THEIR ATTITUDE & FOCUS!!!!!!!!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK, SWEETIE ... IT GETS EASIER WITH EACH POUND LOST! STICK WITH THE BOARDS & COMING TO LCBBuddues - IT IS SOOOOOOOO MUCH EASIER BEING WITH OTHERS WHO ARE DEDICATED TO THE SAME TRANSFORMATION! GOD BLESS YOU & EUGENE! DAWN & NICK KISSES TO MASTER EUGENE FOR LOVING YOU ENOUGH TO SUPPORT YOU!!!!