Depression??

Anybody else have to fight depression about a month out?? I swear, nothing is right with me lately! I'm sick to death of this whole thing, sick of constantly thinking about it, sick of filling up so fast, sick of not being able to take a "normal" bite or drink of anything... My weight loss is very good and I'm doing well with what I'm eating and drinking, but I'm just sick of it all! Then, to top it off, my husband left for Montgomery, Al for the next 6 weeks! I love my children more than life, and I would never give up a second with them, but sometimes I dont want to be the only parent! I dont know how single parents do it, ever since my sweetie left they know exactly which buttons to push! And now, since he's so far away and only has a few days off for Thanksgiving, we're staying here for Thanksgiving and will have no family around. We have plenty of friends that are also away from their families (we're military), but it's just not the same, you know?? I dont even feel like bothering with dinner, either- why make a traditional Thanksgiving dinner for me who cant eat enough to make it worth my time, for my kids who'd rather have a pb&j and won't touch anything I'd make, the baby who eats more than I do, and my sweetie who is on a strict Air Force diet... Well, this post wasn't entirely about the surgery, but I feel better for having vented! Rebecca 227/198/130

VENT AWAY, SWEETIE ... SOUNDS LIKE YOU NEED TO FIND AN ALL-DAY BABY SITTER ... GO OVER TO L'PARADISE ON LADSON ROAD JUST ABOVE MIDLAND PARKWAY (NEAR THE FIRE STATION) & HAVE THEM PAMPER YOU ... IT IS WONDERFUL THERE ... MASSAGES, PEDICURES, MANICURES, NAILS, HAIR STYLING ... I THINK THEY EVEN HAVE JACUZZI TUBS. MOMMA NEEDS A LITTLE BREAK & A LITTLE PAMPERING! GOD BLESS YOU DAWN & NICK SW = 279.80 CW = 257.80 LOSS = -22.00 GOAL = 125-118 13 DAYS OUT

Dawn is right ~ you need some "me" time!

Hey Rebecca! I'm so glad that you posted! I feel your pain! I'm 5 weeks out and I have the same feelings sometimes, they don't come as often now as they did, and usually when I am tired(!) so try not to get tired out, of course that is a dumb thing to say when you have kids and are doing it yourself, but I think it works it way out. As long as you do what you are supposed to and take care of yourself. Sometimes I have to work really hard to block the thoughts out, because after all, it is too late for regrets, we are on the losing side and I'm sure that it will get better. As retired Military I know what you mean about the holidays, but remember they are your holidays, not your families and you desire to make your own memories. Don't miss out on something special.

GOOD POINT ABOUT MAKING YOUR OWN HOLIDAY MEMORIES, MS DONA. MY DADDY SERVED 27 YEARS IN THE USAF &, FROM JUST AFTER WWII THROUGH THE VIETNAM ERA & PAST THAT ... ONE THING MY MOMMA DID WAS THAT SHE NEVER LET ME, AS HER CHILD, SUFFER OR FEEL LACK BECAUSE MY DADDY WAS GONE. SHE MADE EVERYDAY SPECIAL BUT ESPECIALLY THE HOLIDAYS. WE DID ALL THE NORMAL THINGS "WITH DADDY" IN THAT SHE ALWAYS INCLUDED "DADDY" VERBALLY WHEN WE WERE DOING SOMETHING ... LIKE PUTTING UP THE CHRISTMAS TREE ... SHE'D TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ABOUT A PAST CHRISTMAS WHEN DADDY HAD BEEN WITH US ... &, SHE'D TAKE PICTURES OF US DOING "HOLIDAY THINGS". WHEN WE MAILED THE PICTURES & GOODIE BOXES TO DADDY, I'D GET TO DRAW PICTURES OR WRITE TO HIM (DEPENDING ON MY AGE). AS AN ADULT, I HAVE ONLY WONDERFUL MEMORIES OF TIMES, EVEN TIMES WHEN DADDY WAS AWAY. I THINK MOMMA'S DETERMINATION TO "MAKE MEMORIES" FOR ME ALSO HELPED HER GET THROUGH THE NON-ENDING RESPONSIBILITIES, LONLINESS & CONCERNS FOR DADDY, ESPECIALLY WHEN HE WAS IN VIET NAM & OTHER HOT SPOTS AROUND THE WORLD. OUR MILITARY ARE THE FOUNDATION FOR OUR FREEDOMS & SAFETY ... HERE & AROUND THE WORLD ... BUT, THE UNSUNG HEROES (HEROINES) ARE THE SPOUSES WHO ARE LEFT BEHIND & HANDLE SO MUCH IN THEIR ABSENCE. IT'S AN HONORABLE JOB, MS REBECCA ... & WE THANK YOU ... BE PROUD, SWEETIE ... YOU CARRY THE WORLD ON YOUR BACK AS MOTHER & MILITARY WIFE. GOD BLESS YOU DAWN & NICK

Rebecca- I am sorry for the depression you are experiencing. I cannot relate personally. I feel none of the things you are feeling, but I can tell you that you can and will get through this. Just keep reminding yourself as to why you wanted the surgery in the first place and remember that you will gain confidence and things which can't be obtained with food! I can't wait to see your continued progress. Keep your chin up. And i know it will be hard with your husband gone, but he'll be back soon!!!!!!!!!!!!