A Big Challenge "ME"

I thank God for the opportunity to have had this surgery for the health and happiness I personally have experienced since then my blood pressure is under control, I like shopping for clothes, I love being able to be active and doing things with family and friends. Food does not control my life, I can breathe so much better, I don't give out of breathe just walking to the mailbox. I can cross my legs. Do thing I never dreamed that would be able to do. But now I am at another step in the path of my own personal journey another surgery.ABDOMINPLASTY.I have posted a few thing's and tryed to get back into the main stream of the message board as best as I can.But now it's time for me to call on you all. Any Takers? I need an Angel. One that will not sugar coat things, That will crack the whip when needed, But also kind and knowledgeable. You ask why so picky? Because this is definitely a lifetime of my prays unfolding before my eyes and I am scared out of my mind. Yes, this 39 year old women is scared of being a failure. Yes, I have a great family support, But they don't understand like you all do."I Need An Angel "So I am not hiding the fact any more. I am in need here. No, I am not a newbie, Yes I am 4 years out, But that does not mean I don't need help either. That's what it is all about helping each other. So if you are out there and are willing to take me on I would be most greatful.The clock is ticking here and I am very close to my dream coming true. There are no words that can explain how a life of abuse, being obese, and so much more just plain being torn down emotionally,mentally,physically,That is why I am trying so very hard to rebuild me on the inside as well as on the outside. And please no pitty.That isn't what I seek. Please try and understand. This is a cry for help,comfort,support,knowledge nothing more. I try so very hard to help others as I can.But I am now the one who need's the helping hand. So if you are willing to help me finish this battle please respond. And if I said something out the way please don't take it personal. That is not who I am it is not in my nature to make others feel bad in any kind of way. Cause I am not a shamed to ask for help. I thank you in advance and my God richly bless each of you. Tina Carter South Carolina