Complete and utter terror

What is WRONG with me????  I've been waiting for this for a year and a half and now that it's 48 hours away, I'm sick with fear and waffling back and forth about whether I should do this or not!

If I don't do it, I'll lose the chance not only to lose weight and be healthier, but the chance to be healthy enough to run and play with my daughter, the chance to get my frozen embryo out of cold storage and have another child, the chance to see what life is like without "fat" glasses.

The only thing I'm afraid of is losing the chance to eat what I want.  I feel sooooo stupid!  I mean, let's face it--the pros outweigh the cons by about a million miles.

Honestly, I'm beginning to think I'm most nervous about the stupid bowel prep tomorrow.  I've never taken a laxative in my life.  I'm pretty weird about bodily functions (not into bathroom humor, don't "share" my digestive issues in front of anyone--not even my husband of 15 years) so this is traumatic for me.

Sorry...I know I'm rambling, but I don't know who else to talk to right now.  Thanks for listening!

Hello! I understand how you feel. My surgery is on the 29th and I am also nervous. I think it is a normal to have these feelings. But, just think how you will feel after the surgery when you can do what ever you feel like doing and what your daughter feels like you doing (I have a 7 & 4 yr old, so I understand their demands). Also, people over and over have told me that you do not care anymore about food. After the surgery, people say you start to eat to live instead of living to eat. I am sure everything will go well!

Thanks...I keep going through these moments of "Thank goodness!  I've waited so long" and then moments of "OH NO!  I can't do this!"  My skinny mother doesn't understand and I think if I had her support, it'd be much easier for me.  I'm sure she'll feel differently when it's over and done.

I'll be thrilled to have a buddy.  We'll cheer each other on!

I did not see this to today, which means it is surgey day. Good luck today...and welcome to the WLS side.

 will both be just fine I was the same way when it was my turn but  just rem God  will be right with you when I said a little prayer & I felt his pressence I had a peace about me I was so ready ,now I would do it all over again my life has changed so much I am able to get up & run & jump do things I was never able to do for such a long time ,as for as food goes at first the last thing you want is food I had to make my self eat & the things I loved I dnt like any more crazy I know but is so true ,but as time passes you will want to eat more & more & are able to eat more ,so just be carefull of the carbs the are hurting me right now ,& that is something I am deling with now,

     just rem when you het out of hospt sip ,sip,sip on your water you will not be able to drink like norm for a while that is why you have to sip ,some ppl have trouble with cold water at first I know I did so I had to drink warm water ,good luck & saying a prayer for the both of you Becky

Nothing is wrong with you, everyone goes through those thoughts and fears right before surgery.  Hang in there, you will be on the losing side soon and everything will be fine.  Everyone I know that has had the surgery (and I have met quite a few in the last 3 years) say it was the best decision they ever made.

Good luck and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you so much for posting this...
I've also been having these thoughts off and on and I don't even have  a surgery date yet. The things you've been told is exactly the reassurance I need. 


Thanks to everyone who               replied to her post.

Well....I did it.  It hurt, (still does a little) the nasty drain is gross, and I had a German nurse in that hospital who was trained by Hitler's top torture man.  But I am apparently going to have to absolutely force myself to eat because I can't imagine wanting to put ANY food down there!  So far, the worst thing BY FAR was the swallow test.  That plastic-flavored contrast liquid had me gagging my head off but I survived.  I'll let you know a year from now if I have regrets!