Why do I do this to myself???

Ok!  I'm so pissed at myself.  I did so well sticking to eating good things today but after I worked out, I totally lost it.  I came home and I was so hungry that I was trembling.  I even ate a protein bar before working out.  I ate so much watermelon and never felt full.  Then, I had way too much supper.  I had pork chops, rice and gravy, and you guessed it....MORE WATERMELON!!  I bought my last one today.  I am so addicted to it.  I used to hate watermelon...I mean HATE it.  Now, I can't get enough.  I am so scared that I can eat way too much and that I am gonna gain all my freaking weight back.  I don't know why I do this.  Now, I am miserable.  Rachel

I am there with you Rachel.... OMG!!!!  I just drove thru Chick-fil-a and ordered, ate and now feel like crap a piece of Lemon pie!!!!  While I was eating it I was saying to myself "This is not helping me get to goal...THis IS NOT helping  get to goal!!!"  I think if I had stopped at one or two bites and stopped it would have been so bad.... but know just like pre-surgery days I  ended up eating the whole thing!!! Tomorrow.... I am on protein and good carbs... no more junk!!!! I MEAN IT!!!! NO MORE JUNK!!!!!!  If I do I want you to personally kick me in the butt!!!  DEAL????!!!!?!??!!!??! Thanks pal, Pammy

You are sooo not alone with that problem. I've been thru it for several weeks now. Finding out that I can tolerate sugars is the worse thing I've ever done. I can eat practially anything I want now, and in larger amounts. I used to have no problem doing protein shakes and eating 3 oz of good foods, but now some of my old habits are creeping back in on me. I don't eat that much at one time, but seems like every couple of hours i find myself looking for something to eat. We'll just have to be there for each other. Lord knows I don't want to gain my weight back. We've been through too much to turn back now. Gotta be strong. Gotta see ourselves as who we want to be in our future instead of who we were last year. I refuse to go back to what I was. Be strong sister.

I think we all do it.  Its a food addiction thing. If you can find the answer to stopping it, please let me know.  I am having the battle of all battles right now!!

I think we all are stuggling with this issue. My cravings are also hormone driven, the week before my periord all I want is bad food and carbs. This past week I ate bad foods all week, even bread every day (bread is one of my trigger foods).

I had been beating myself up and worried because some of those old habits are creeping back in and am sorry to hear you all are struggling as well, but in a way relieved to know I am not alone.

Yep, right there with you guys!!  I hate it.  I know most of it is from the fact I quit smoking.  I think I am starting to slowly get back under control, at least I hope I am. So Rachel, you are not alone! Julie

The only thing REMOTELY helping me at all these days is the extreme pain I have when I eat too much, or when I eat something dense.  My "feel good diet" for the last few weeks has been Fage yogurt and soft scrambled eggs.  Just about everything else hurts.  Does that mean I don't try to eat other things?  Oh hellll, no.  I have so many issues surrounding food and the eating of it that there is no way that pain ... even severe pain ... is going to stop me from eating what I want. I wish I knew the answer.  When I'm having a sane day, I recognize that my addiction to food and my mis-use of food will be something I deal with on a daily basis for the rest of my life.  This surgery didn't remove that.  I hope that, one day, I will have the wisdom to be able to cope with the stresses that this addiction causes me ... without me giving in to the cravings and compulsions to eat unhealthy foods just because I like the way they taste, or for some other reason that has nothing whatsoever to do with eating!   (One of my favorite reasons to eat --- I'm ALONE in the house, and there's something good on TV.  In my warped brain, that's a good reason to snack on something... ANYTHING.) It scares me to think about my life after my repair surgery next week ... it scares me to think about eating without the pain ... will I eat more? .... will I eat EVERYTHING???