I said it out loud...I can't believe I did it!

I was in the breakroom today talking with some of the women I work with. The subject of Star Jones came up.. and how she admitted that she had WLS 3 years ago. One of the women sitting there said to me " Yea.. she's lost 160 pounds.. she NEEDED the surgery.. I don't think YOU needed it.. you didn't look like you had that much to lose" ...

I leaned forward and asked her point blank.. " Exactly how much do you think I weighed the day they rolled me into the OR " ... she said.. " I don't know.. maybe 210 "  I said " NO.. I weighed 299.5 " .. and I realized at that moment.. I have NEVER told ANYONE how much I weighed.. Not my husband.. ((I made him step back the day of my surgery so he couldn't see the scale because I was so ashamed....)).. and I've never mentioned it to even you guys..my OH friends..  I can't believe I said it OUT LOUD.. More importantly.. I wasn't embarassed about it.. I waited a second.. thought maybe I was going to burst into tears but I didn't.. I sat there with my head high. I said.. " I've lost 88 pounds so far.. and have 55more to go"  I'm in shock that I said it out loud.. in front of EVERYONE..

 

I know just how you feel. I have NEVER told my hubby, children, friends or anyone. not even you guys, but I told a rank stranger who struck up a conversation with me in the lobby when i was registering for school. She started the conversation about weight, her struggles, etc. It didn't hurt as bad as i thought it would to say it, but don't know that i can repeat that number to anyone else, and I can't explain why. I've always been able to hide my weight too because of my frame, so i've always "pretended" that i didn't weigh as much as i did. Wierd creatures we are.

I was exactly the same way with hiding my weight.. I can't wait to really weigh what my drivers license says I do!! The big test is this weekend.. we are going to John's family reunion in TN. I haven't seen most of his family since before my surgery.. I wonder if I'll be brave enough to admit how much I started out weighing.. I don't know tho.. it's VERY freeing.. sounds silly I know.. but I have NOTHING to hide anymore!

I've noticed myself doing that too.  I told someone the other day that I weighed 242 at my highest and now  I weight 152.  It's a great feeling.  I still can't believe I was that large.  I tell the world now that it is gone, but I would have never said anything if it were still hanging around. Rachel

You go girl, say it loud and say it proud!!! Patti

Peppermint Patti!!!   Thanks darlin.. I'm not embarassed anymore.. it's so WEIRD!

Congrats..that is Wonderful.  It is very important for us to be able to say where we were and where we are now....you should be very proud of yourself.

It feels good to come out of the closet, doesn't it!! I have been pretty open about my weight loss surgery. Everyone here at work has been very supportive.

VERY COOL!!!!  My dirty lil secret is still vaulted... maybe one day though.... theres always the dream right? Youve done a great job Stephanie!!! 

I'm still without my laptop but I am just catching up.... Thats fantastic that you told her, its a HUGE step and we're very proud of you and on another note Would you like to come over my house this weekend? We're going to have wine-at least 4 glasses and then go riding thru the neighborhood with ummmmmmmm a video camera to see if we can videotape any ummmmmmmm  wild polar bears.....yeah-thats it.... TOPLESS--and those things are HUGE.....did I say that outloud.....man I am never in the right place, although I did think I saw it on youtube