Easter Candy confession

I ate it. All of it. 3 kids worth of Easter candy, gone in 2 days and they may have gotten one or two pieces. I've snuck from 127 (my lowest), to 130-131 (my "usual") to 136 (post-Easter candy binge). My size 4s are snug, my size 6s fit like my 4s did. I dont care what size I am, but I've used that as a kind of guideline.... On the plus side, I FINALLY made an appointment with my PMD to get a referral to see a therapist to FINALLY deal with my food addictions once and for all. Wish I'd done it sooner, but better late than never, and better now than when I gain all my weight back, right??? I hope I am, but someone please tell me I'm not alone??? Rebecca

i think youre like alot of us.. i got ahold of my daughters regular size m&m's and said "ill only eat a couple.. " i ate half the bag.. waited 20 min, didnt dump.. so i scarfed down the rest of the bag candy is the DEVIL I even found myself on the candy isle at walmart fantasizing about what sugar free chocolate candy i should get before i smacked myself in the head and said keep walkin moron!! its hard.. its really hard! I miss bein fat sometimes.. it was alot easier to just eat everything i wanted and not worry about "A couple of lbs" when u weighed 320 lbs! but now.. i am worried about it so i try to keep on track.. and those dang easter chocolate bunnies are the devil too!!! I had ONE huge one, and ate half of it.. the thing had 880 calories!!! yes, 880!!!! I about fell out of my chair.. thats what i should be eating with a days worth of food not junk for a snack! LOL but we all will fall , it just means we have to get back up, brush ourselves off and do better! Youre doing great and look great.. youll be fine just dont knock yourself too hard for it! jen

You are DEFINITELY not alone! go back and read some of the "What did you eat today" posts. Alot of us have been really really bad. I keep fluctiating up and down 3 pounds. My clothes aren't as loose as they used to be and I feel bad again. and I'm not even at goal yet! Ugh. I have been seeing a therapist for my food addiction for about 2 months now. We are still in the very beginning stages, but the other day I was on the brink of a nervous breakdown and was eating everything in sight- whether it made me sick or not! She said I looked like I was gonna crumble! I've gone back to some old habits, but I'm trying to live somewaht normally, but still keep things in check. Not too easy to balance the two. But I'm gonna keep working at it. So, while you are only a couple of pounds over waht you feel comfortable at, go ahead and work on losing it. Don't let it get out of control and I am sure you will be ok. (((hugs)))

Not asking for private & personal details Ms Kathy, but what kinds of things does your therapist focus on regarding food addiction? How does the therapy help you?

Mostly my coping skills. She's trying to help me find new coping skills for when I get to where I am using Food (or Shopping) to comfort myself. I had actually gotten to the point when the weight stopped coming off to where I was falling into some bulimic habits. I recognized them pretty early because I was bulimic before surgery. and I was also running up some pretty hefty credit card bills, where I had no debt before. I pretty much just sit there and talk and she will ask a couple of questions and she will point out things to me that I never realized...good and bad. She show me how I progressed, even though I feel like I haven't. I usually see her at around lunchtime and I will think to myself, "When I leave her office, i'm gonna druve thru McDonalds," but after I have been with her for an hour and pretty much have gotten everything off my chest, I no longer WANT to eat anything unhealthy. Even though we never once talked about my actual eating habits. So thats when I can see that some of my "hunger" is actually a response to stress. and after my last visit, she asked me if my job, (which had made me cry that day) was really worth my health. So I have been thinking of alternatives since then, including school. Really it helps to be able to tell someone absolutely EVERYTHING that has happened to you in your life and confess to all kinds of things and know FOR SURE that she will tell noone else. Friends are good for talking to, but you never know who can and cannot keep a secret. I'm glad I'm seeing her. I like her. Kathy

THANKS FOR THE INFORMATION, MS KATHY. I ASKED BECAUSE ALTHOUGH I HAVE MY EATING UNDER CONTROL, I AM SEEING ANOTHER ISSUE REAPPEAR IN MY LIFE THAT I'M TRYING TO FIGHT AGAIN. I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN ABOUT NEEDING TO TALK WITH SOMEONE YOU CAN TOTALLY TRUST! I PRAY THAT YOU CONTINUE TO FIND THE ANSWERS YOU ARE LOOKING FOR. GOD BLESS YOU ... DAWN & NICk

GOOD FOR YOU, MS REBECCA. PLEASE SHARE WHAT YOU LEARN FROM YOUR THERAPY IF YOU ARE COMFORTABLE DOING SO. IT'S AMAZING HOW OUR MINDS & EMOTIONS CONTROL OUR EATING EVEN MORE THAN OUR STOMACHS DO. I'VE HAD ONLY ONE EMOTIONAL EATING SPREE SINCE SURGERY (feel very blessed) & IT JUST TOOK ME OVER LIKE I LOST ALL CONTROL FOR A COUPLE WEEKS. IT TOOK SOME REAL EFFORT TO GET BACK ON TRACK. DEALING WITH THE UNDERLYING EMOTIONS IS STILL GOING ON BUT I HAVE THE EATING CONTROLLED FOR NOW. GOD BLESS YOU ... DAWN & NICk