Why, oh why, did I do it?

I can't believe what I have just done....I have been SOOOO good about not eating desserts or sweets. Not that I was afraid I would dump but because I was afraid I WOULD NOT! Well, today I was putting up some cake from a birthday party this morning and I said to myself, "Self, it wouldn't hurt to take a little lick of the icing..." So I did. Then I said to myself again, "Self, it wouldn;t hurt to take a little bite of the cake..." So I did. Next thing I knew, I had eaten an entire small slice of that cake! It made me a little woozy but no big deal so far. So what do I do? I go back in thirty minutes and get another small piece. I am a little light-headed now but no other symptoms. Why do we do this to ourselves? I tell you what, the devil is always there, just lurking around trying to find ways to mess you up! He got me today! SOOOO, how's everyone else's weekend been going? Melanie

That is what we need to talk about in group. We all need an answer to that!!! Patti

Seems as if this day went from bad to worse... I went to a party tonight and at first thought I was doing well...I just got a little bit of a few things...probably more than 5 -6 ounces but, oh well. Not only did I eat that but thirty minutes later I went back for a few more bites for seconds. Even then, I ate until I was miserable and finally had to make myself go throw up. Surprisingly, I had to make myself do it. I am proud of myself, however, that I did not eat any of the desserts! I really need help with this so let's all try to talk about this at support group or on the board, okay? Y'all have a good rest of the weekend! I'm gonna go hit the sack... it's been a long day! Melanie

Well Melanie, at least your not alone on this one. I think all of us have done the same thing at one time or another. I know I have, and I have regreted it every time. I know my pouch will hold more than 4 ounces, so I have to be very careful I don't over eat. I have made my self sick eating more than I should, but I find that I do it again later on down the road, as if I didn't learn my lesson the first time. I really dread my 6 month appointment, because I know I have not lost down to any where near what he said I should be at when I go back. Now I have been going through some clothes that are too big for me and I have this fear that if I get rid of them all the weight will come back., but I can't keep hanging on to them forever. So, I guess I need to get over that fear and dump them on someone else, LOL! Take care sweetie and I hope to see you at the meeting Monday. I need some encouraging words from all the old timers. Screw the Mary

Wish i had some words of wisdom.. unfortunately im as bad as you are! we went to toys r us and they had a easter hunt thing and of course they get the mini reese cups.. i ate about 7 of them!!!!! and i even figured out how to chase it with water so itd rush through without making me dump! im awful. i need a lecture from chris.. maybe even a spanking.. jen

Old habits die hard, don't they? I've found that the less I exercise, the more I tend to eat compulsively. Trade one method of stress management for another, I guess. At least you recognized there is a problem, and came on here asking for help. I would never have done that before WLS.

Oh Melanie....I understand you pain. I can tolerate sugar (I tolerate most all sugar, haven't found anything that doesn't sit well with me) I don't know why we do it. I also have a problem with eating too much. I am satisfied before I stop eating. I need to learn to stop with a little and wait 20 minutes, then I will be satisfied!!! Well, talk about it tomorrow and maybe even get those deamons out!!! Rachel

I can't hear you I can't hear you Bla bla bla I can't eat sugar, I don't want to dump, I can't eat sugar, I don't want to dump. I can't hear you I can't hear you I just don't want to try it. Heck, I dumped on that dang sauce at Dicks in MB. Deb