Worth Sharing

I thought the partial post I posted under Towana was worth sharing. I know I can't be the only one in this boat, so I will bare all (not skin...haha) To shed some light, and put some perspective on our goals. From Towana's post below......."I told Doctor B. that I would just let my body do what IT wanted to do once I got to goal, as long as it was not gaining!! He agreed, he said see how far I could go!! SO, don't go beating yourself up for being competitive, when have we had so much fun before??? I don't remember....but today I bought a REALLY cute jean skirt size 6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have never been a 6 or 8 in forever, never....10 yes, 12 yes, but never 6/8, so I plan to enjoy this while I can!!!! I now feel like I still look fat because of the extra skin, but a year ago I would have been happy at 170, so here I am today at 154lbs, so no complaints!!! Saggy skin, who cares. I will wait for Dr. Katzen if I have to save every penny and wait a year....stupid Tricare. I let myself get really upset yesterday...down right depressed because of the surgery denial and then some stupid plastic surgery advocacy supposed group called to "refer" me to a great doc...I finally figured they were trying to refer me to get a kickback or finance me so they could get the loan....really made me mad!!! I was burning and then got depressed and started crying while driving...here I am a size 8, crying my guts out over some skin??? Its hard, the only thing holding me back from surgery is the money, but God knows I want it and He wants me to have the desires of my heart, and I kept looking in the mirror, if I had the thigh lift my thighs would not touch for the first time ever, so until then....they rub together. I still feel like I look fat when I wear jeans due to the skin, but who cares....size 29 jeans and they are sort of big??? What is wrong with me!!! I am giving this over to God, and putting my worries and desires behind me as I know it will happen in HIS time for the right reasons. I am dealing with some liver issues right now, elevated enzymes, so God knows what is best. I couldn't have the surgery right now anyway, but he knows the skin is an issue, so I am not going to let the devil beat me up anymore!!!! Love ya!!! You have done a great job, we all have, and deserve to gloat and be proud a little bit, its not as easy as some others think....right!!?? RIGHT!!! So time to cheer up and put this all in perspective and see where we have come from, not where we are going!!" This is when I wish I had a support group here, because I know I can't be the only one with the skin/finance/insurance issues.....but what an issue to have!!! Love you guys, miss you lots I am grateful for this board and everyone on it!!! LCBB You Rock!! SC YOU ROCK!! Deb

WOW Deb, a 6.....that is GREAT. As for the big weight question, I think it is all in what you feel is right. And I think the plastics do a lot for you - but I know the financial end of that will be a problem for me now that I am alone. Hope you are doing good in sunny CA! Susann