What's on your Monday Menu?

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FIVE MORE DAYS, PEOPLE! I can't even believe how quickly that is going to go. I mean I have a TON to get done before I leave, but knowing there is an end in sight will really help.

I was extremely lazy this weekend. Remember how I said I tool a Unisom on Thursday? I did it again on Friday and that was a mistake--I think it really affected me and I couldn't get it out of my system. I was exhausted all weekend. We hung out with our awesome neighbors who have been in our bubble for the last 2 years, but that was about the only social thing we did! I mostly just laid around, and I still woke up tired today.

QOTD: Were you a "fluffy" child? I was looking at childhood pics of myself this weekend and I am always shocked to see that I was not heavy at all. I suffered from extreme body dysmorphia from an early age, so my memories of my size are all mixed up. I remember being too embarrassed to leave the house at age 6 because I thought I was too fat, but in reality, I wasn't even a little pudgy, then. From 7th - 12th grade my weight fluctuated all over the place and I became anorexic, then would go to the other extreme of closet eating... So grateful that I finally (mostly) figured this out.

B: Protein Coffee and 1 Dunk's Egg & Cheese Wrap

S: Chomps Meat Stick

L: Leftover Greek Salad

D: Skirt Steak Tacos

Good mornin JB and everyone! Hoping all had a great weekend.

Mine was somewhat lazy as well. Going without anything but regular Tylenol has been HORRIFIC...I haven't felt this much pain in a long time. I mean...it's bad. Yesterday I was on my feet a lot because sitting was really hard as well as laying down. So today I am extra tired and I've been up since two. I didn't get a whole lot accomplished except for the shirts I did for the kids and a hoodie for my SIL. I am loving the cricut so much. My mom is wanting me to do Lego head shirts for the kids. My brother is a Lego obsessed guy. I mean...it's crazy lol. Could be worse...he could love beer like that!(for the record he hates alcohol as do I...nothing against it though. My uncle was a very bad alcoholic and it affected us deeply...my day was an alcoholic as well.). So Michaels has their shirts on sale and hobby lobby has their cricut iron ones 40% off. Guess what we're doing today?

I also have an appointment with my bariatric surgeon today. Let me tell you...I am not thrilled. I am so ashamed of myself. I've gained 10 pounds or so in 6 months. I am trying to show myself some grace but it's hard not to kick myself all over. I have failed this tool...so much so. I don't blame anyone or anything but myself because I made the choices I did. I know I miss being active and some of the pain meds aided the weight gain but the blame is mine and mine alone. Weirdly though my depression isn't as bad as it could be. I am feeling even keel and while not great it is better to be steady that up and down ALL THE TIME!

sitting here the pain is so bad so off I go.

QOTD: my self loathing started early. I was 6 foot in 5th and 6th grade and beyond fluffy. I hated myself and was always told by certain family members that I'd be so pretty if I lost weight...I'm sure a lot of us heard **** like that. It seriously screwed with my head. Along with the abandonment issues from my father and other family members...well I ate my feelings. I wish I could give myself a hug back then. People are cruel. Kids made fun of me a lot for a long time. Once my aunt gave me a foot long summer sausage for Christmas. Ugh... all the bad feels.

B: JUST egg, cheese, green onions and coffee

L: thinking a PP shake

D: I need to actually cook something

S: ???

You are a strong person, Melody

Thank you...I don't feel that I am but maybe I don't give myself enough credit.

Good morning

QOTD: I didn't get fluffy until I was about 9 years. It was always mild 15 or 20 pounds over weight. But it affected me as my mom always hounded me about my weight, so I fought my weight tooth and nail. As an adult I dieted all the way up the scale till nothing I did took off much weight.

Menu. Shake, salad, then hamburger and a veggie for dinner.

Melody: I suffer from chronic pain from several different conditions. I got better when I switched pain doctors. Finally one that would work with me.

This weekend, I gave myself permission to do things that were good for my mentality. I played cards Friday night. I saw my father Saturday. Also Saturday, I celebrated Hanukkah with my sister and mom. I made decent eating choices while just having very little bits of a potato pancake and noodle pudding. Yesterday, it was back to my responsibility. I spent the afternoon at Starbucks getting work done.

QOTD: I became overweight in adolescence and struggled with weight ever since. I yo-yo'd weight a couple times in my 20s. However, I was my heaviest from 35-41 before I had the Sleeve this year.

B: Dannon light and fit coconut yogurt, TJ coffee, almond milk, sf vanilla, stevia

L: 1/2 Ham Sandwich, 35 cal bread

D: Possibly dinner out with friends - maybe 1/3 burger & side salad. I'm getting my booster shot and don't know how I'll be feeling. I may be being too ambitious with these tentative plans.

I had no side effects with the booster; my arm wasn't even sore! Hope you have as good of an experience.

I had no issues following my booster - I had Pfizer-Pfizer-Pfizer, my Wife had Moderna-Moderna- Pfizer with no issues, Hope you have the same result.

I didn't have any side effects with my (Moderna) booster, either. I was a little light-headed the following day, but I'm not sure if was the shot or something else. At any rate, I was surprised since I had flu-like symptoms for a day after shot #2. But nope - booster was easy-peasy!

I had JNJ, then Pfizer. The JNJ first shot kind of wiped us out, but not on the second one. I did have to do extra burpees the day after the booster because my arm was too sore to do pull-ups.