Felt so sad this weekend
I saw my old self this weekend, and it made me so sad. I had to run out for diapers Sunday morning, and as I was standing in line holding a box of diapers and a jack links meat stick,The woman in front of me was morbidly obese. Just glancing at her purchases sent me into my past. There was a small pack of toilet paper, and then 4 or 5 boxes of little debbies, some individual bowls of sugary cereal, 4 full size bags of potato chips, and other various snacks. Her total bill came to over $40 and the toilet paper cost less than $10
I wanted to give her a hug, but of course I don't want to get my ass beat for being rude or hurtful. But the whole scene just really took me back to a place in my life that was not that long ago, and filed me with an overwhelming sadness.
I don't know why I'm posting this, I don't want to sound judgemental, because I would never want to shame anyone or hurt their feelings. But it was so unhealthy and I think it was the first time since surgery I've seen something like this. In the past I wouldn't have noticed, since my cart would have looked about the same.
all you can do is say. A prayer for her,that she will one day be able to get out the trap she is in,like we have. And then be very very grateful...
Right now I am having a hard time just wrapping my head around "normal" food portions, let alone the binging habits of the MO.
I went to brunch this weekend with perfectly healthy sized friends and I could not believe my eyes when the plates came. On each plate was:
- bagel & cream cheese
- fresh fruit
- a huge omelette
- hashbrowns
It was like a month's worth of food to me. And every single person cleaned their plates. Wow.
