What's On Your Thursday Menu, RNYers?

Don't beat yourself up about it. I know it's difficult, I've dug into the sour cream & onion chips a couple of times.

Doritos are so hard to say no to- * hugs * Today will be better, and you are absolutely awesome. I'm sorry you're having trouble with the night snacking. I get it- Can you move the extra calories the nurse practitioner wants you to eat to the middle of the day?

Leaving positive thoughts,

-LB

It's okay, we all have our days and "not so great" choices. Keep your head up girlie you got this!!

I don't think it helps that I am in a stall right now....which I know will break, I just need to keep doing what I am doing....but GAH that little voice in my head that says "You are ALL DONE LOSING, you will never reach your goal" is such a *****! lol

Get that voice out of your head, I know I know...easier said than done. Sending you positive vibes.

OMG I have that same voice in my head.... it is killing me. I go to the Doc this week and was hoping to have more to show on the scale.

Lol! I have really weird dreams all the time, but I have a hard time remembering them after a couple of days. A while back, I was in excruciating pain, so I thought why not take some of the leftover pain medication from my surgery before bed. That was a bad idea. I dreamt that my cat turned into a flying monkey with demon eyes and was crawling on the ceiling! Here is my plan for today:

Time since surgery: 6+ months

B: Coffee with half and half and 1/2 Premier Protein Shake

S: 4 oz 0% Greek Yogurt with Torani sugar-free Vanilla Syrup and 7 grams unsweetened coconut

L: 1 Hard-boiled Egg, 0.8 oz Chick Peas, and 1 oz Part-skim Mozzerella

D: 1/2 Fried Chicken Breast from Grocery Deli

S: 3 oz Unsweetened Almond Milk with 1 Tbsp Chia Seeds and 1 oz Chevre Goat Cheese with 1/2 serving Way Better Snacks Sprouted Grain Crackers

Totals: Cals: 822 Protein: 71 Carbs: 45 Fat: 43

E: Either Jillian Michaels or Yoga Exercise Video

I tend to have very vivid dreams- My favorite that I remember was this one- It was very soothing:

I was at actor Simon Baker's home on the beach, and his wife and some other guests were there as well, including a friend I had fallen out with. There were various houses/buildings on his property, and detritus everywhere, like there had been a hurricane or a war, but somehow, it didn't feel negative. I was so happy and calm and felt loved. I was playing guitar, and he had a wild collection of stringed instruments. Even though some were broken, it was somehow a-ok. Everyone there was calm and smiling all the time, no worries, no drama. I remember sitting on the roof of one of the buildings with someone, looking out at the ocean at night. Some artist had painted the roof so that it looked as if the ocean's waves were gently "crashing" onto the roof. By leaning back on your elbows at just the right angle, the edge of the roof (painted like water) visually connected with the actual ocean, and the illusion was made that you were lying on a beach in the sky. *sigh*

At another point, I was sitting on a couch in a living room that, like the rest of Baker's property, looked like a bomb had hit it. The wall to my left had been blasted away, and looked out onto the nighttime beach, strewn with broken white plaster, glass, and branches. He was sitting a few feet away from me, leaning back in a chair, wearing the outfit (sans jacket) that he normally wears on The Mentalist, smiling that cherub's smile at me.

I was holding a cracked, smashed instrument that looked like a cross between a violin and a guitar with lovely scroll work on the head and body. "It's beautiful," I said. I don't remember the exact exchange, but he gently shushed my worries that it was broken, saying it was alright that it was that way- it didn't matter in the least. It was still a beautiful instrument. The light in the room was a soft, lulling pink, but it was coming from nowhere- It just was. It almost gave off the impression that he and I were underwater, and the light was coming from all directions, yet none. (It's really hard to explain.)

As part of that same scene, or maybe earlier, maybe later- I don't know- I mentioned that I wanted to go play guitar. I "saw" his wife in the shattered kitchen making cookies, etc., and their children were laughing and running around. He said something to the effect of, "Go on, go on," and I did. I slid my guitar's strap over my head and walked out onto the littered beach, toward the water, strumming some chords, with this feeling of love and acceptance and peace within and around me, despite the warlike zone of the place and the inescapable nighttime.

Off to work soon. My goal of the day is to finish my school paper on dementia while in between little jobs at work. (I call this ninja studying, as my job has me at a computer all day, so it looks like I'm just busy like everyone else.) Wish me luck!

Time since surgery: 2 months and 18 days

B: Coffee

S: Protein shake

L: Tomato soup

S: Protein shake

D: Tomato soup

W/V: Already started

E: Still not happening, but I did order a really cool pool watch to help me when I get back in there!

Cals: 600 Pro: 73.5 g H2O: At least 48 oz, as I'll be drinking all day

The kraken is waiting,

-LB

Good Morning! I watch DWTS so it's funny you mention the snake as during one of the week's episodes she brings a snake to practice and I hate snakes so I totally hit the fast forward button on my DVR to get passed that part. For some reason I can't think of any crazy dreams at the moment but I know I have had them especially when I was pregnant but maybe I am just too tired (which is scary because I have been for almost 3 hours already)...cue in my need for my latte that is sitting here :)

Time since surgery: 14 months

B: SF latte, egg beaters with spinach and cheese, fruit (apple slices, dried figs and grapes)

L: Grilled chicken, tortilla chips (just a few/about 5) and salsa

S: Quest pumpkin pie bar and a SF iced latte made with Fairlife milk

D: Flat bread pizza (Alfredo sauce, turkey and mozzarella), light and fit yogurt and artic zero

E: 1 hour cardio

V/W: On track

Totals: Cals:1149 Protein:106 Carbs:132 Fat:32

Have a great one!

I still remember a dream from when I was a little girl, it was terrifying. This dream will show my age... I had a dream that there was a terrible storm outside my house, and when I went outside, the sidewalks and trees were all ripped up. I ran back in the house to try to find my parents and that is when the stairs opened up like coffins, and out come the two kids from the tv show Land of the Lost. They were like zombies. So I ran and hid under my bed. I woke up from that dream and it was early morning and no one was up yet. I pulled the cover over my head and barely moved until i heard my mom wake up. I could have been no older than 4 years old.

I had another dream when I was a teenager. In my dream i was at my best friends boyfriends house. He lived just down the street from me. A "storm came" and I looked out the window, and no kidding I saw the four horsemen of the apocolypse flying down the street (they were running, but in the air). So after the passed, I ran outside and toward my house, but it was not safe and my best friend Amy was trying to get me to go with her, but then my mom and my brothers come driving down the street calling for me to get in the car and go with them. I was so torn on which way to go. I woke up.

Food:

B: Oikos Triple Zero Mixed Berry Yogurt and Decaf coffee

L: Shrimp wth zucchini noodles again

D: pork chop with brussels sprouts and potatoes

s: *spread throught the day* apple slices, cheddar cheese and shrimp

Totals:

Cal 738 Protein 77 Carb 39 Fat 30

water and vitamins going. exercise... meh.