Unbearable frustration
UGH....I am almost two weeks out and my emotions have been all over the place. But primarily I have been beyond frustrated with things that would normally just get me a little upset. Like the kind of frustration where you want to scream but you want to cry at the same time. I have cried too. I have had 2 major crying spells, like sobbing, chest heaving cries...and I am not a crier. I hope this passes and that the emotional stuff regulates. I also got my period so dealing with still some surgery pain/uncomfortableness and cramps is total BS just saying. Anyone else have emotional times soon after surgery?
It is worth it...I just did not expect it to be this much. The things I am getting frustrated with are worthy of frustration and the reasons I have cried have been worthy of a cry as well. I am trying to figure out if it is the hormones or whether it is this powerful new outlook that I am putting myself first and that I matter. Something I rarely did before.
Well, consider this, also... You (like everyone else here) has used food as their emotional crutch. We get upset, we eat. We're happy, we eat. We get angry, we REALLY eat. And now you don't have that tool anymore. So now all your emotions are up close and personal when you are physically at your weakest (just having surgery). I say have your crying jags and don't feel bad about it or upset. Things will calm down a bit. Just give it some time...
....and consider taking up kick boxing! Better than crying... :D
I had RNY March 4th. I had to respond to this because...I cried. Like a big ole baby. But, I do have to say, I am almost six weeks out, now, and it is getting better. I am happier now. I do get teary-eyed at times, but for the most part the crying has not been as bad. I think for me it was more like...oh, lord, what have I done to myself? And yes, I missed being able to eat. Just saying, it does get better. Hang in there!
sounds like we are close to surgery date, mine was 3/23. I too have had my trials, I also did the crying spells. On day three of crying I called my PCP and they changed my antidepressant to twice a day due to absorption and it has helped like crazy good. I have had so many trials since home, I have every reason to be down but this med change is helping big time. I have complications going on and they will hang on til my one month visit at least, so put the chin up talk to your docs and remember we fight fight fight for our journey we chose and this is the current part of the battle now that we passed the preop battles