Ok. I've held off posting buyer's remorse until now...
It hasn't been easy for me. I am four weeks out and still sore but getting better each day. I am about 90% better for the most part. It's a hard surgery and not all of us can get through it easily. Just one day at a time and eventually you'll feel good each time you step on the scale or shop for new clothes!
However, people keep telling me it gets better. I can only listen to them and hope that it does.
I'm determined to make today a better day mentally even if I can't make it better physically. Every time I start to feel down, I am going to return to this thread, choose a post, read and reread it, knowing that that person has gone through this surgery and survived, and then taken the time to encourage me, a perfect stranger, through my own rough time.
You are all appreciated more than you can know!
Hang in there ... it does get better. I had a lengthy recovery period and had to go on short term disability following a post-op complication on day 2 that landed me in back in the OR and a week stay in SICU... I was a mess and so full of buyers remorse it was not even funny. I can relate to how you feel .. I felt so sick and the pain meds made me even sicker. My friends who went a week or so ahead of me or behind me were all thriving and doing fine and I could barely walk ... came back to work after being out for 3 months and had a syncopal episode and landed right back in the hospital for another week. I could barely make it to the bathroom by myself and standing and sitting were a chore .. I used a recliner for months I just could not get into bed it was almost impossible ... I used to sit there and just bawl when no one could hear me ... the secretions oozing into my ileostomy bag burned and broke down my skin so bad I would scream I was so weak and dizzy and nauseous all the time and had this horrible taste in my mouth all the time I was miserable.... but it got a little bit better each and every day ... The first time I got on the treadmill I was on the lowest speed for a couple minutes and thought I had walked around the world and back I was exhausted and drained. Then one day I woke up and could not believe I was feeling healthy and strong and could barely recollect my ordeal. Today I can say honestly that I would do it all over again even with a different choice surgery if I had the option because the reward is greater than the pain and discomfort. HANG IN THERE!!! YOU CAN DO THIS.... One day at a time my beautiful beautiful sista on the journey!!!!
I didn't ever have buyers remorse, but I had a smooth recovery. However, the first month you really don't feel good at all. After about a month you start feeling like yourself again and after 2 or 3 months, you start having some significant weight loss and being able to fit into clothes you haven't worn in years and by month 4 or 5 everyone is telling you how good you look! You are also carrying around significantly less weight by then also and feel so much better . . . and it just keeps getting better from there. Seriously, the first month is nothing but downs and huge adjustments - get through that and you are golden and can start reaping the rewards!!! It gets so much better - although it's hard to see it when you are feeling bad )-: You will do great! I can't wait to read your posts in a few months about how great you feel and how great you look!