Mornin Everybody,

Well its 5am again and I'm awake...I don't know maybe they put an internal alarm clock in me during the surgery, cuz ever since i'm up at 5am....but its ok...I fall asleep around 10pm everynite lol...its quite time, before the kids get up, its just me and the dog.....I think he loves it too lmao... Today I go tanning at 9:30 and then I'm going to excersie...I'm gonna make myself do it... It's suppose to be 80 degrees today and I don't know what i'm gonna do the rest of the day, but I know I wanna be outside...I would love to start cleaning out my flower beds and stuff but I don't think I'm ready for that yet...plus we have too many bees outside already....(I hate bees!) well have a great day everybody.... Much Love, Teri

Hi Teri: I bought all the soil and stuff and intend to do some planting this weekend. I'm really trying to get some stuff done around the house since Monday is my last day of testing. I think it's going to be a race from that day forward. Up til now, I keep telling myself that I have time to do this, or do that.......but I think Monday will be the start of the "Amazing Race". So I want to plant my flowers and clean up my yard a bit and just get some stuff done that I've been putting off. My office/craft room is SCARY!! Perhaps I should just open a window and start there. And I always do more when I paint, cause I know I have to clean every corner......ummm.....yes, I'm very anal and have OCD!! LOL. But at least it keeps me honest during the spring cleaning...lol. OK, so painting the office is on my list for a weekend chore.....................gee, thanks Teri, for making me face all of this work that needs to be done. LOL!!!!! Anyway, don't overdo it there lady! Yes, you need some exercise, but right now, you have a bonafide reason to just sit outside and enjoy the sun........so do that. Take it easy. I'll see you soon. Shel

Hey Shel, Well around here, everybody takes pride in there lawn and flower gardens, and such...(I just like it too look nice) but you wouldn't believe the guys, we live in a cul de sac and if someone's lawn is greener, well the other one is out there trying to make there's better..lol..its funny seeing the guys do that,...we use to call Brian the grass man....but that didn't always sound good lol... No one around here will help me with my garden, but hey...Tim is suspended, so maybe I'll make him clean out the flower beds .... hmmmm thats a good choice....pretty soon I can plant my veggie garden, I can't wait....this year I want it to be bigger then last...I have a problem, I'm allergice to all kinds of insect bites so I really have to be careful....one year i wouldn't go outside unless I doused myself in bug spray till one day in a store some woman says boy do i smell bug spray lol I stopped that real fast... My left arm is still killing me...I had asked Dr Ryder why it would hurt like that, and it turns out that thats where they kept the blood pressure cuff during surgery, and I must be bruised real bad inside, cuz I was in the OR for so long....its amazing I can't even lift anything with that arm...good thing I'm right handed lol.. Well you have a wonderful day, I'll see you soon, Love ya Teri

Hi Shel When are you going in for your wls? carol

Hi Carol: I have my last tests at RIH on Monday.......my pulmonary, chest x-ray and blood work, then I can call to make the appt to get a date. So no date yet, but I'm guessing sometime in Aug. How have you been? I read that you've felt like crap on the bottom of someone's shoe.....hope you're feeling better. As I told Teri....you have the right idea sitting outside in the sunshine today with a nice cold drink. I think that sounds like good medicine. So much so, that I've decided to take half a day off and go home at noon and do the same. I'm just gonna sit on my deck and read with my doggie by my side. We all deserve it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Talk to you soon. Hope to see you at the next meeting. Shel

Good Morning Teri and all , I am up early today too, as its warm out and we sleep on the second floor of a town house with a fan and its still is warm up here. So I am up and showered and ready to go....to DUDLEY STREET!!! I AM SO DAMN LUCKY ....I have to have my last tests before surgery. Then i am going to the gym to walk on the treadmill. It's all I can do with my arthartis but it's better than nothing I guess. Then I want to just park my fat butt on my little deck with a glass of something sf and my book and sit and read. This sure is the day for doing it. Oh yah, I have to go and visit my parents in their assisted living facilities in Cumberland. My parents are 89 and 91 GOD BLESS THEM. Hubby and I go every Friday with pizza and soda, and tons of goodies for the week...as they both hate the food there. By the way people, I was talking to Teri about pill crushing and I googled the question and found this site. I hope it helps ........ the link is http://www.dearpharmacist.com/crushed.php just copy and paste or just click on to the link and it wil give you a list of pills that CANNOT BE CRUSHED. Have a great Friday Carol B

Carol, Good Luck with the rest of your testing today.... You are so lucky to still have your parents, god bless them....I lost my dad 21 years ago, and my mom ( my bestest friend) died almost a year ago 5/28/05....Its so hard to believe that she's really gone...It was the hardest thing, going through all of this without her here. I go outside at night when the stars are bright and I talk to her...I miss her sooooooo much I can't really explain the pain in my heart for my mommy...But I know she's with me, its just hard sometimes when something happens and I still reach for the phone to call her... Teri

oh Teri: I have forgiven my mother for my childhood, but I really wish I could know those kinds of feelings that you all have for your parents. I feel obligated and I don't mean that in a bad way.....but I feel obligated to take care of her now. But I'll never forget the trauma and the sheer nightmare that I called a childhood. I think looking at the stars and talking to your mom is beautiful and I wish I could feel that for my departed father.....but all I can feel is relief. The hatred and anger have subsided, but I don't miss him. And this may sound dumb, but I miss THAT! He took all of that away from me. I feel sad that you all feel such pain at your loss, and my heart is heavy with your pain, .....but please know that what you had was PRICELESS...it was such a gift. Some of us NEVER have that relationship with our parents....not ever in our lives will we experience that kind of love. So hold your memories of mom very close and draw strenght from them....and by the way friend,......I'm sure she was here with you, in spirit. I have to believe that the only way I survived some of the things that I did was through the grace of God and then having my grandma (my mom in my mind) looking down upon me and guiding God's hand my way when I stumbled. Your mom knows what you've been through and she sheds tears for you......but she also smiles down upon your strength.....and the same goes for Carol. Just a pizza and soda and some goodies, how we all take that for granted....but what she shares with her parents every week is what loving is all about. You go girls!!!! Shel

Shel, I can't even imagine the pain that you've had in your childhood. But I do know what you are talking about, because you know I adopted 2 of my children, and I've told you everything that they went through...so I do have some kind of clue. But I know how lucky I was to have my mom for 88 years, she was the light of my life and thats why I talk to the stars...I know she is with me. we have always had this thing together, her birthday was 11/11 and our address where I grew up was 111...so whenever I see the clock at 11:11 or a total of a bill comes to 11.11 I know she is there with me...and you wouldn't believe how often it happens...I would have never believed it..because it is such an odd #...but it happens so much.. Shel, I'm here for you and if you ever need to talk....don't hesitate to call...and btw...I wanna be your angel.... I love ya, Teri

hey there........ Yes, I know about your children and that's why I couldn't offer too much tough talk when it came to their behavior, as I know what it's like to just feel confused.....jeez, if people only knew how much they hurt kids, long after the proverbial punches have been thrown. But the kids found their way to you!!! And as much as Tim is a pain in the posterior right now, he knows that you're hanging in there with him. It will make all the difference later on. Right now, he's just trying to figure out who he is and how he fits into society. You have a great day out in the sunshine. And follow Carols lead......good book, nice cold SF drink and the sunshine. What more could anyone ask for? oh and get Tim out there digging up your flower beds for you...LOL. It'll be good for him to sweat out some of the toxins he's been putting in his body. Darn kid! oh and btw.................thank you for being my angel girlfriend. ...........and I love ya too!!! Shel