8 more days....i'm kinda scared....

Well, my stomach is in knots...I read the memorial page....it really scared me...I guess that's part of it...I wasn't going to read it but someone told me about it and I just had too... I made a Living Will.. I have 4 children and a husband and if anything happens to me I don't want them to have to make that kind of decision...so I put in there..exactly what I want...I just have to get it notorized and witnessed...I wonder is this a normal feeling? Does everyone go through this? Or am I just a morbid person....along with my co-morbidaties...(thought I'd throw a little humor in all of this).... Well someone write to me and make me feel better PLEEEEEEEZZ... Ter

Teri: I won't have surgery til this summer and I've already done the same stuff. I've gotten all of my life insurance policies in order and made it easy for my family to find all of my stuff.........stocks, investments...etc. Firstly, who wouldn't think like this? We must be responsible to our families...........BUT..........since you've already taken care of that stuff (we should have most of that stuff done already anyways), then now is the time to think positively. Our recovery and healing is partly based on our mindset. DO NOT GO TO THE MEMORIAL PAGE ANYMORE!! Especially before surgery!! I did it too. I read every one of them and got scared out of my mind. Please don't go there again. Right now, we're going to concentrate on getting you healthy and in a mindset ready for healing. Dr's and surgeons are a big part of this......but you are going to guide your recovery. YOU! And I'm going to come and see you after your surgery. (I'll try not to make you laugh...owweee!) But I want you to think about how good you'll feel in a few months...how much you've longed for this. You don't have time to think about that other stuff. It's going to be OK. We're all here for you. And I'll be there for you after surgery. I know you're scared, anyone in their right mind would be.....but please don't go to the bad place. That's not what this about. This is about getting HEALTHY and living the way we've wanted to live for so long. I want you to get things ready for your return home. Think about that stuff. Get things organized so you don't have to reach or stretch for things you may need for the first few days. Think about your recovery and how much your life is going to change.........for the BETTER!!!!! I know you're scared. But do not dwell on the "what if's". We all know the facts by now. But now is the time for positive thoughts and TRUST in your surgeon. We love you!! I will see you in EIGHT DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! {{{{{{{{{{{{Teri}}}}}}}}}}}} Shel

Hi Shel, You make me feel so much better girlie! damn your good.... Ya know what keeps getting to me now...lol...I'm so silly....I'm gonna look like **** in that damn hospital....who's gonna do my hair...will I be able to get up and take a shower and blow dry my hair in the morning? lol...damn you can tell i'm still a jersey girl at heart lmao....but those things bother me....my sister told me to go out and by a babooshka..(sp)....but still damn...lol... 7 days....a week from today.......*feel a little like i'm walkin on air*... Love ya Ter

Believe it or not, I was already thinking of that........cause I think that way too. I thought I would come by the day after surgery and help you a bit. I know what you mean. When we feel like we're clean and looking good, we feel a little better. Don't worry about any of that. I'm sure you have a support system to help out and I'm coming by to help you too. It's gonna be alright. Remember........GOOD THOUGHTS! And healthy thoughts! Continue with your diet and drink your water. Pack your bag. And then sit back for the next week, cause it's gonna fly by. Everythings GREAT! Smile! I'll see you soon. {{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}} Shel

Hay Girlie Girl!!! I'm so excited for you!!!! I have two months two weeks and one day left myself!! Not that I'm counting.. lol I remember when I went in to have my son, I was worried about the same "hair doo" issues your worried about. What you might wanna do now is maybe play around with headbands. Towel dry ya hair at home really really good then put a head band in it damp. Scrunch it every now and then and tussle it around a bit as it dries. Ya know kinda get the feel for what you can do with it. Or maybe a baseball hat will make you feel better. Heck everyone looks good in a baseball hat. Try on different ones though cuze different styles fit people differently. Bend the bill to your liking and make it your own. If your hairs long enough pull it through the hole in the back or if not tuck it behind your ears (my personal favorite weekend look). I know that when I look like crap I feel like crap sp I completely understand where your coming from on this. Good luck and know where all here rooting for you and waiting in line for our turn!!! Big Hugs!!!! ~~NaDene~~

i don't know if i could add anything more to what Shelli said so well, other than to tell you know i know how you feel. things are starting to feel a little more overwhelming than most normal days. i find myself looking at the calendar, with all of my X's, getting closer to my date.. and wham, i can feel myself tense up and my breathing get a little short. it's crazy! i'm the calmest person i know.. but not anymore. lol just keep your eyes to the future and your thoughts positive. everything is going to be alright and turn out fantastic. :::hugs::: kristen

and we're all here for you too Kristen.............. {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}} Shel

awww thanks. i need an angel of my own now! LOL and Teri, you probably won't even CARE what you look like.. the drugs are THAT good. LOL ;o) Kristen

you know.......I offered to be your angel too, back in the day. Teri took me up on it. I have big wings, so if you want me to be your angel, I have plenty of room. Besides, I wasn't going to leave you behind honey. I was gonna come up there and see you anyway, angel or not. Having someones name on a page is nice, but having someone stand beside you when the time comes....well, that's what's important. I wasn't going to let either one of you....(or my NaDene, when her time comes), be without an angel. NEVER!! And I think you and Teri are going in at the same time right? If so, depending on who's up first, I'll bring one to see the other....if they let me, that is. lol. Depending on who goes first, someones gonna be up walking. (yes, I'll carry the puke pan........yes, I'll make sure the johnny doesn't open up and show your hiney.......yes, to all of it....LOL) Put me down as your angel.........one wing for Teri, one wing for Kristen. I care about both of you and I'll be there for both of you. **smile** See you soon. Shel

you offered? i must've missed that post!?!? i'm so sorry. that's rude. i'd love for you to be my angel. I'm going in the day after Teri.. but i'll probably be in the hospital longer than her. I'll have to email you all my contact info, etc. thank you so much, shelli. you are such a sweetheart. do you have your own angel?! now you deserve to have two! kristen