Disguted with myself!!!

Well..I need to vent so here I go. I am soooo disgusted with myself that I don't know how to do this. June 26th will be 2 years since my band. I did great in the honeymoon period and lost 96lbs in my 1st year..Big pat on my back. Since then I have gained back 30lbs ...URRRGGGG  I am doing everything I am not suppose to and have not been to a group in forever!! I tried going back to Nutrition, tried counseling, hell I even went on some anxiety pills to control my thoughts. NOTHING is working. I have been sooooo ashamed to go back to Dr. Roye so I haven't. Well I had it and called to make an appointment for May 14th. So here I am thinking i am going lose 30lbs in 2 weeks. Yeah Right!!!!! I am at my wits end and I know what I am suppose to do. Why can't I? Or better yet why don't I try?? Had to vent and I am going to make every effort to make this a new start. Hopefully I can get past my shame to walk into a meeting ..Better yet I hope I don't chicken out on my appointment with the Dr. Well I don't feel any better but it is nice to see it all written out. Maybe just maybe his will be the time I change???
Jaime

Sorry Jaime.. on the bright side you really rocked your band!!  I was under the impression that bands did not really have a honeymoon period and that was more of an RNY thing because of malabsorption??  Still even with the gain you have done weel with the band.  You can get back on the train!!

Go see your doctor!! maybe you need an adjustment!! 

Jaime- I sent you a message.  We need to chat about this!  I never had the sucess that you did, but I just had to pop into the store today to buy a pair of pants in the size I had gotten rid of as being too big   ::sigh::
Maybe together we can beat this!!!