Thank you Everyone!

  Happy Memorial Day Everyone!   Thank you all so much for helping me. I have received so much support between the forum and people leaving me PMs with phone numbers! You are all so wonderful. I just can't find the words to explain how grateful I am to have you a part of my life!   Okay, I'm sure you have been wondering how things are going. I hope you won't be too disappointed in me.      I went to the wedding yesterday with the best of intentions.   I had all my water with me, my shakes, my calcium were in my bag as well. When I first got there, they were serving raw vegetables. I ate a couple carrot and celery sticks, a broccoli flower and two hot banana peppers. For dinner I had top round (ate it first) and trimmed ALL visible fat off it. I ate 1/4 baked potatoe. As hard as I tried not to and tried to resist the temptation, I had a roll.....with butter. And, unfortunately, I DID have a small piece of cake with my decaf coffee (black with splenda). I just could NOT resist it! We had eight people seated at the table. I couldn't tell the other six people to get rid of the rolls during dinner. BUT I did ask if everyone was done with the rolls & butter and had the waiter take the rest away before I finished off the rest of them myself!  And the cake, well, there really isn't an excuse....I just   LOVE wedding cake! In the past, I would have eaten AT LEAST three large pieces myself. I only had ONE small piece (like 2"x3"x1/2"). Then the rest of the night I didn't eat anything. I just drank water!!! I even ordered a beer and didn't drink even a sip of it!!! I gave it to my hubby instead!   All-in-all I think I did really well. If I could control myself like this on a regular basis, I wouldn't be where I am now. My DH, John, said that if I could resist the 'bad' stuff and resist overeating, I wouldn't get to the point where I need this surgery as a tool to help me. I DO feel a bit guilty but I think it would have still happened anyway. I AM ready for the surgery, I NEED the surgery. I can't do this weight/healthy eating thing for the rest of my life Without the surgery. I just can't wait until it's done!  As a matter of fact, I feel more ready for this pre-op diet and the surgery now than I was two days ago. I have started losing some of the weight Dr. Pohl wants me to lose and I'm not so hungry today either. Thanks again for everything you do! I appreciate you! Jules  

Julie - how could we be disappointed??  You did an amazing job at the wedding!!!  I so so so proud of you!!!!

Thanks Danielle! I think having started my food journal is helping me stay accountable. Not to mention everyone at the table except one person knows about my surgery. I think that helped too. I'm actually reconsidering telling people about the surgery instead of lying and telling people I'm going in for hernia repair. Did you tell people? Jules

I told very few people....because I didn't want to be judged.  I find that I tell more people now.

Dear jules, You did great!! You should be proud of yourself!! Its a funny thing you mentioned about telling more people about your surgery.. I was pretty open about, and when I went for my nutr. appointment a few weeks ago. as I was getting up to leave she suggested I tell as few people as possible about my decision on having lap-band surgery and of course i was really taken back by that ( I really dont know when to be quiet) anyway she went on to explain that in her experience its surprising how many people try to sabbotage good intentions of bettering onesself..I really never thought of things like that until she mentioned it...........Love Kim Ps Im still telling my closest friends and family about my surgery.. I Just thought I would share ...

Jules,  I think you did a great job under the cir****tances.  I'm not sure if may people would have had an easy time in a wedding setting.  Just get right back to the pre-op diet and I am sure you will be fine.  Your big day will be here before you know it.  Amy

It's 10:30 PM and I'm going to bed. I've had a PERFECT pre-op diet today! I'm not even hungry at all! I'm finishing up my last shake now, as I type this. I do try my best to keep busy this time of night by doing crafts and working on the puter. Keeps my hands busy. I feel so much better today. I hope tomorrow is just as good.   EVERYONE! Have a great week! Jules

Jules, You did awsome!!!! Do not be down on your self at all. I am soo proud of you!!!! You already are having the mindset as if you were post of a year or two out!!!!! Keep up the great work!! pppllleeasse send me an email or PM me any time. I believe I gave you my cell# as well@ Let me know if you need it again. ***Hugs DD****

Jules - congratulations.  What you are doing must be so difficult.  Especially a wedding!!!!  You are my hero!!!!! On the telling people part - I am having surgery next Tuesday.  Nobody knows except my husband.  I am so torn on what to do.  It's hard to explain, but  I really want to tell those who are close to me, but my mother-in-law is the biggest gossip.  I just know that she will slip.  She has close ties to a someone who is a direct friend with one of my office mates.  I work in a small office with six nurse practioners.  I don't want to be judged - espeically by the medical community.  Also, one of my office mates has the biggest mouth.  I work at a school and the things I have heard about other people that work in other buildings - people I don't even  know - really bothers me. But on the other hand I do feel kind of lonely in all of this.  Thank goodness for this forum - you all are a godsend!!!!! I truly feel that if I tell my closest friend (my sister in law) that it will just trickle down to everyone.  I'm not ashamed - I'm actually really proud of myself for doing this - I just like my privacy.  Yet on the other hand, I can't imagine living my day to day life with nobody knowing.  I feel like such a fraud.  People at work will figure it out.  They are not stupid.  We eat together every Friday for breakfast, occasional lunches/dinner, etc.   Do I just let it out now and or have it come out later??????? UGGGGGGGG

Jenny, I know exactly what you mean! I'm starting to rethink the not telling people because NOW, the people who I HAVE told, are lying for me. I hate to see that. I'm feeling really bad about that. Also, maybe if I tell more people, I can help someone who was in my shoes not to long ago feeling useless, hopeless, ugly & fat. You know? I have to think about it a little more. Well, have a wonderful day! Jules