I too had a nice mothers day

I got to spend my mothers day with my little Nicholas (hes 4) and my fiance. It would have been nicer if it was sunny!! Anyway, I work at a fine dining resturant on the weekends (for a second job) and I have been there for 3 years. On Saturday I was all ready to go to work and I just broke down and started bawling, my poor fiance did not know what to do! What was so upsetting to me has been building up for awhile now. In the back of my head, when I am waiting tables, I think to myself bad things like "this customer is ordering only that salad because she does not want to get fat like me" and if the host seats someone who is obese in my section, I think to myself it is because I am obese so I might as well wait on them. I know that these things are probably not true, but I can't help it!! I feel weird waiting on skinny people and always think that they are talking behind my back. soooo anyway I quit my job, well not quit, but told them I would be back 6-8 weeks after surgery. It felt so good to be able to spend a whole weekend with my family, something I have not done in 3 years!!! Surgery is in 3 weeks and I just can't wait!!!! Kristin

Kristin, I know its hard sometimes...but I want you to know that you are not the only one that feels like that. In all aspects of life, there are times when we just don't feel good about ourselves and think that other people are better than we are. That just isn't true though. I've learned that its crazy the things that go through our heads. People just can't be that cruel. I know some people are, but they are not worth our worry or well who cares what they think anyway..ya know. I just want you to know that this is a beginning of a new life for you...and me...and everyone having this surgery. We get to have a do-over....we have to have our minds set to all the new and exciting things that we will be able to do once the weight comes off of us. I'm glad you got to spend the entire weekend with your son and fiance'. I hope you have a wonderful day, and I hope I helped in some small way. Love, Teri

Teri: Thank you so much for your kind words. You are always a great help to me and an inspiration. So how are you doing now? Kristin

Kristin, I'm doing great...I've lost 30 lbs to date and although I don't see it yet...well I can't say I don't see it...I guess I see it in my face...clothes fit me better...it makes you feel great...Yesterday I had a new shirt on and my daughter says oh my god mom...your stomach doesn't stick out anymore....I can't tell you how good that made me feel. So yes I'm feeling great,. and I love that I can help you and others on here...that makes me feel great too.. Teri

Hi Kristin, I am glad that you got to spend quality time with your family on Mother's day. I know how you feel...I too am always questioning other's motives and second guessing myself all the time. I hate the feeling of walking into rooms and looking for the chair that I think will accomodate my weight the best, and sometimes not finding one, and being uncomfortable with the sides of the chair digging into me. I developed an eating disorder because I am always thinking that people are looking at me wondering why the "fat girl" is eating what she is eating. It's a terrible way to live, and I hope once I get my new tool, I will start to see changes. I know that it is all in my head, and people maybe don't think that way, but who knows. Society is so fickle. I am excited for you to get your surgery. I hope you get the results you want, and can find happiness.

Hi Kristen: I too have developed an eating disorder because of being obese. I eat at night when noone else is around so that they cannot judge me or say that I am eating to much or not eating right. I think that there are some people that do think that way about obese people, because to tell you the truth, when I was a younger, I was one of them. I am ashamed of that. Thank you so much for your support! Kristin

you look like Brittany Murphy, I was trying to think of that for so long after I saw your pic!!! Kristin

Kristin, I read your profile and you barely met the qualficaitons for wls. Gosh to me, I only wish I was 263, I lost weight several years ago and when I got to 263, I looked really good. I say that because I got so many compliments on my weight loss. I was over 300 lbs...i gained the lbs back over the past years and now i am over the 300 lbs again...about 312 now and feel really ****ty now..full of pain etc.. I too am 5.8". I know everyone feels and looks at themselves differently, but honestly i cant wait to be your weight and its gonna take a while for me to get there. carol b

Hi Carol: Well I now weigh a bit more than that, 272. I had weighed 263 at my first consult with the surgeon on feb 1. I have quit smoking and put on some weight since then. I am really looking forward to this surgery, I have been up and down with the weight my entire life. 4 years ago I was 148. 2 years ago I was 182. 6 years ago I was 248. I somehow have the ability to gain 100 in one year, don't ask me how!! Kristin