A year out !!

Hi all,

I have been missing from here for the past few months. I have been having a really hard couple of months. Lots of feelings to deal with and I was not winning the battle against my inner daemons. :(

And of course instead of relying on the one group of people who understand the most I was hiding. But after hearing from Derek and Nathalie on Facebook I realized just how silly that is.

So I have mixed feelings about my one year surgeversary, I'm not any where near where I had hopped to be. But as others around me keep reminding me, be proud of what you have accomplished. So I'm trying that.

I can now cross my legs, buy tops in regular stores, bike ride again and many other small and not so small victories.  So I have to try and focus on those.

Here's hopping this year will bring me even closer to my goals.

Cindy

Hey Cindy! I for one am happy to see you back. I feel for you and know that we are always here to support you. This is a journey for a life time and yes most of us post our weekly losses and brag about having it all together but honestly, this is a daily on going battle. I too still struggle with exercising and staying active. My health has been stable but I still struggle with major fatigue issues and just getting through work and house chores is a challenge. I still at times beat myself up and that self critical perfectionist side of me gets the better of me sometimes....Other times I manage to keep my thoughts on my achievements and my ongoing journey to a better more balanced lifestyle.
Losing 115lbs is everything to be most proud of. Keeping it off is another momentous achievement. So try and focus on that and if you lose more well that will be icing on the cake my friend. I for one am most proud of your achievement and I'll always be here to support you not matter what happens in your journey. We are in this together! and this goes out to all my OH support group.

I know exactly how you feel.  I did the same thing after things were not going to well for me with the lap band.  I stopped going to support groups, stopped signing in here, etc.  Don't beat yourself up too hard.  :)

 

Welcome back Cindy

As I already told you, we are here for you.  At some point in time, we all go through mix feeling and seeing that you are not alone really helps.

Nathalie

Hugs to you all and thaks for your support.  It feels great knowing that you have friends that understand and have been there.

 Hey Cindy,

You were definitely missed. Don't focus on those regrets, you're moving forward and thats the only direction for you to move in now. You're accomplishments thus far, no matter what they may mean to you personally, are substantial and significant in our eyes and I'm sure the eyes of those around you. You're doing a fantastic job!!! Keep it up :)

Sincerely,

Omar