Confession
You are not alone. I have been eating around my band simply because it is easier sometimes. I give you credit for your confession. It is nice to know you can come here for support without being judged. You have had surgery and the flu - both pretty exhausting events. Take care of yourself and take one step at a time to get back on track. It is wonderful that the band is so forgiving and is right there when we are ready, huh? Good luck!
I think we all go through those phases......and I think it's ok as long as we own it and do something to change it (OMG, I'm watching too much Dr. Phil). I started over yesterday.....actually went back to mushies on my own, just so I could get my portions under control. Eating around the band is easy - but I have to say that I like that I can do it without any problem from time to time. Sometimes, you just need a little cheesecake!!
Good luck getting back on track....I always feel good when I've lose a couple of pounds - it spikes up your energy level!