Moving forward with my VSG!!!

I talked with Dr. Kim's nurse today. She told him that I cannot do solids like he requested and he said "Your band has not slipped and if you can't do solids, then your only option is to remove the band". Well, duh, that's what I've been saying! So, he said finish getting my pre-op stuff together and do the best I can getting in protein pre-operatively. I made some cream of chicken soup with powdered milk added. So... I am going to try and push the protein! So... now that I am getting things going and surgery is coming up... I am getting scared! I just fear that because I had problems with my band... will I have problems with my sleeve. Weight regain with the band has made me really depressed and I am terrified of a few things with the sleeve: 1) I will have complications or be miserable with reflux and vomiting with the sleeve 2) I will not lose much weight 3) If I do lose weight, I will gain it back Now, I did well with the band (when it was working), so I know I can use my WLS tool... but I am afraid of failure again. I feel like a loser in the negative sense that I need a second WLS tool. I wish there was more long term data on the sleeve, but frankly the only long-term data regarding WLS is with RNY and that is out of the question for me. Just getting scared... surgery should be middle-end of Feb! I need this, but I don't want to have problems like that I am facing right now!

Weight regain is a possibility for all of us. I'm just determined not to allow myself to eat around my surgery. I guess I could eat a candy bar but I'm not going to. Once you start to feel better I know that you will become active again like you used to be. I really believe that getting rid of the band will stop your reflex problems. I believe in my brain and my heart that you are doing the right thing! We all had doubts before surgery. Why should you be any different? We all love you and are praying that this will be the answer for you!

I know that weight regain is a possibility, and I have experienced it and it sucks. I know that this is situational (can't exercise right now, can't eat good foods, etc)... but I still fear that I won't lose the weight with the sleeve. I do feel that removing my band will fix the reflux problems... and I have had so many problems with fills and reaching (and maintaining) my sweet spot. I see people like Staron T who have had 3 fills and can't imagine finding my sweet spot and staying there! I do have to acknowledge that I obstruct easily and that my experience with the band was not normal from the beginning. I just hope my experience with the sleeve will be better!

Alyssa, Your attitude through all the struggled have been a huge inspiration; you've managed to stay focused on wanting to get the weight off and stay healthy. I can't even imagine your strength. ~hugs~

You are so sweet! Thank you! I am trying to stay positive. Overall, I am emotionally stable... but I have depressed moments (between bladder problems, band problems, and sleep problems). I try to stay positive and look forward. I have learned in my life that looking back and beating myself up for something is not productive. Instead of mourning a year that has been miserable, I am seeing 2008 as a positive change for me!

Good to hear that you are moving forward with the next steps. I have had reflux this week and it sucks. Hoping to get an unfill today. You will do great with the VSG!!

Oh Chelle, I am sorry to hear you are having reflux again. Man that sucks! You were doing so well with your lat fill!