Long post warning!

I posted this morning, but it seems to have disappeared. Oh well...I'll try to remember what I posted. Basically I've missed you all. I have been without the internet because my it hasn't been working for 5 days. Geez, I can't believe how much I rely on this stupid thing! I went to my dr. for a fill Friday and he refused to give me one. I was so psyched that I would finally start losing again. He said he reviewed my last flouro and I was as tight as I could be. He wants me to see the nutritionist and try to get my eating back under control. I was sooooo PIZZED! After screaming and crying at my husband I decided in my infinite wisdom that I would show that *&#^#%#^ doctor. I'd eat my solid protein first and show him that I am STILL too loose. WRONG! I really can't eat much at all when I eat my protein first. That explains why he is the doctor and I am the patient. I guess I just didn't realize how far away from the bandster rules I had strayed. The good news....I have lost 4 lbs in 4 days. I went to the nutritionist today and she confirmed what I already knew...I have an eating disorder. Binge eating disorder to be exact. I am also probably lactose intolerant and suffering from SAD. I am a complete mess. LOL She said sugar is a drug to my brain and I should consider it my enemy. She went into great detail about all of this...this is just my simple explanation. She also suggested I see a therapist to find out why I am self-medicating with food. Maybe I should just be locked up for a while! Anyway, sorry this is so long. I just have alot to say because I've been off for 5 days. LOL

Gee, I wondered where you were! I know, it's awful without your puter! ha Well, hon, I'm so glad you understand your doctor, now! 4 in 4, is terrific! The lactose thing can be taken care of, and SAD, is hard, but can also be controlled. As for the sugar, I've seen you handle it before, and you can do it again! I have total confidence, in you! Keep us posted, on your progress, hon!

Thanks for always being so encouraging. You are the best!

That's wonderful! Congratulations on getting back to basics! Keep up the good work!

Yeah....too bad my skull is so thick that it takes me a year and a half to stop fighting my band.

Kimberly: It doesn't really matter how long it takes you to stop fighting the band. You lost during that fight and you'll now be more successful than ever, I am sure. Don't blame yourself, we are all the same! Huguette

I think we all fit this description....food addict. I have long felt that before we go get a fill, sit down and have 3 oz. of chicken or lean steak, and 1/2 c. of veggies, and see how we feel. Can you eat it quickly without much chewing? Do you have trouble getting it down? Does it take you 20-30 minutes to eat? Do you feel satisfied for several hours after you eat it? Solid protein is really the only thing that will properly FILL your pouch and turn off your hunger for a while. I'm glad you had some sort of break-thru!!

So true Nancy. Too bad I didn't read that before I went into the drs office. I could have saved myself from a major temper tantrum. lol

Sometimes "knowing" it doesn't even save you. Been there, done that !

awwwww. Kimmie, I know all about the sugar thing.. I too am addicted to the stuff.. However, I try and use Splenda whenever I can.. But i know what you are going through too. Cheer up hon, you can do this. Look how far you have come so far.. Look at you! Just look at yourself in the mirror and stare for a few minutes.. What do you see? I see a gorgeous girl with motivation to whip this thing in the butt and get back on track.. I do see this.. Do you? Take all that you have been through in this journey, along with all the junk you had to have stopped eating to lose the weight that you have, but it in your mind that you are going to finish in first place and lose all the weight you need to and put that string bilini on in the summer and that's it! BAM! You go girl.. YOU CAN DO THIS!!! HUGS, CN