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Oh my what a noisy and wild night.  Thunder/Lighting...rain....I'm hoping the rain is over for a bit, I'd like to get outside to take a walk at lunch.

Back to work yesterday what a day!!!!!!  One fire after another to put out.  I had an appointment off campus for the banquet and had to leave the office without addressing the last crisis, I had all the folks in place that I needed but I hate leaving things unfinished especially when it deals with a member and their care.

I did have a wonderful day yesterderday.  My cube is all decorated with graduation stuff, one of my co-workers brought me a beautiful boquet of flowers and bagels to share with our department.  Then I was on the phone working with a providers looked up and my entire department was by my cube staring at me - my boss said how dare you work LOL

The cake was beautiful and their gift to me - I was so touched by all that was going on.

Today I'm working till 4ish.  Then home to get some wash done and start cleaning up what I can in this house.  I'm so sick of my horders room where everything just does not seem to have a place at this time.  I also have to start working on Gene's website and start cleaning up my resume just in case a position is posted that I might be interested in.

I also need to start addressing the pounds that I've put on working on this degree.  Time to get them off I have a wedding coming up!!!!!

Love, hugs, and prayers going out to Beth and Lisa....

Hope you all have a wonderful day

Ida

Geez, I almost forgot to post! 

Here it is almost 11pm and I have thought about this surgiversary throughout the day... I have also thought about this site and the help I received in the early days.  As I have stated before, when I searched this site for answers and inspiration after my surgery, I often wondered where those long-timers were... and I promised I would post throughout the years.  And here I am posting once a year on my surgerversary.  I am sorry about that, but here goes...

I had my surgery 6 years ago today and my story is probably a lot like yours.  That morning I cried, I was so frightened - in about a year, I lost about 120 lbs.  And my life has changed in so many ways.  I kayak, I hike, I bike, I teach Zumba, Spinning, Group Fitness, and Pilates.   I never walk into a room worried that everyone will judge me based on my weight.  People often refer to me as tiny (which is still really weird).  I have taken risks that I would never have taken before.

But, it's still hard.  I struggle with head hunger, I don't always like to exercise, I want sugar ALL THE TIME.  For a while, I got really lazy, not working out, not taking my vitamins, not drinking my water... I get back on the stick, doing the things that made me successful, but it's hard.  I don't say this to discourage or frighten you, but to offer just a little wisdom from my experience.  I have to remind myself that the surgery was a wonderful tool, but still just a tool... If I don't get my head and heart in the right place about food I will not continue to be successful...  If I don't recognize the ongoing struggle and face it honestly on a DAILY basis, I will end up right back where I started six years ago...  And... it would probably serve me well to get on this site more often and continue to learn and continue to be inspired by the bravery and generosity of spirit that is always so prevalent here. 

So that's my story... good luck to all of you on this wonderful journey.
Love and happiness,
Lou

Thank you Steffi!!!!

It just might be time for that PhD!!!!

Sending you a big HUG

Being a mom is one of the challenging jobs there is, being a single mom even more challenging. 

Have you considered working with a systemic family therapist, one that will work with the two of you as well as separately in addition to her continuing with her therapist and psychiatrist? 

Prayers, love, and hugs to you all....

Ida

Lisa

My heart breaks for you.  I have seen first hand how devistating Bi-Polar can be.  But you need to also take care of yourself.  Someone suggested individual counseling for you and that might be what you need.  Don't think of yourself as a bad mother.  You are not.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.


Jeanne