Hey Lisa,
Good luck with the detox.  That's great that you are trying to get back on track.

I totally understand your anticipation of the other shoe dropping.  I've been there with my younger son when he lived with me.  My suggestion is to just enjoy what is happening now.  Things may be great because of the Tae Kwon Do.  The exercise and discipline that requires, plus Siehera's ability to help you with the moves, is probably making a huge difference in her overall mental health.  That type of structure is awesome for any adolescent, especially those with mental health issues.

Hugs,
Trish

hello everyone.. I've been lurking.. I have to work at the store tonight, so my FINALLY won't occur until after 9:30 tonight.  

Been busy with work and such.  Things here are going REALLY well.  Siehara has been fantastic!! I hate to think this, but sometimes I feel like I am waiting for the other shoe to drop.  I can't help it.  But, it's been about a month and things are still good.  We only have normal teenage stuff and it's over before it gets out of hand.  It is so much more peaceful here.  

I've been trying to stay on track for the past few days and doing a really good job.  I am detoxing and just doing protein shakes, water and my vitamins.  I am on day 3.  I'm figuring I'll go through the weekend slowly adding lean proteins back in and getting AWAY from the stupid carbs.  

Went to synagogue for Rosh Hashanah and it was tough.. I sat in my "normal" seat on the first day and just kind of looked around.. it was kind of like I had never left, but different.  I felt awkward.  After services a few people came over to us and asked where we've been and said that they've missed us.  It made me feel good and bad.. good that they bothered, but bad that they didn't come looking for me over the past few months instead of waiting til I showed up.  I did speak to a few people and they were comforting.  There were good intentions in our talks, but we'll see what happens in the future.  

Anyway, things here are just busy but good.  Neil will be coming back in to town either tonight or tomorrow.  I have to go to synagogue tomorrow because it is when I say the prayer to memorialize my father's death.  The English anniversary isn't until Tuesday, but the Hebrew anniversary is Sunday so I have to say the prayer the Sabbath before.  That will be a better test of how I feel there because there will be the lunch there and more opportunity to talk to people.  I noticed a lot of distance between the Caines and me on Rosh Hashanah.  It's definitely not the same and while it hurts a LITTLE, I realize that they are in a different place in their life than I am and we just don't have the same bonds as we used to have.  

Well, enough about that.. better get back to work.  Have a great weekend everyone!

 Hi Lynn,
I am late checking in, as usual.  I was out the door fast this morning, getting an epidural cortisone shot in my cervical spine.  This was due to an injury that occurred when I fell and really hurt my leg and broke my nose.  Then, I had to scoot to my volunteer work at the agency.  

I have been making a lot of AA meetings lately, and met a woman who asked me to be her sponsor.  I am honored.  

I have to go back out to pick up some prescriptions at Rite Aid.

Lynn, I am so glad you are getting your dog.  Mine would be heartbroken if I were gone long.

Hugs,
Trish

Oh, I understand fully about your priorities Lynn and you do what you need to, because you want the best possible results, as well as time spent with your now "commuter" husband, but remember I'd be willing to meet you (as my schedule permits) outside of the support arena, so let me know. . .

As for the geographics of where people are going, that is the fun part, my daughters live in the "Orlando" area, my latest friend has a place in Hallendale, Florida, which is near to Miami. . .  others in various places along the gulf coast, Ft. Meyers area, St. Pete, Clearwater, Naples. . .  all over the darn place. . .  heck the way I see it, I don't have to buy a place there, just an overnight or week at time at each person's and I could live rent free (lol). . .  the hard part is that when I go to Florida, I am usually there for 3 or 4 day visits and so I see my daughters and grandchildren, leaving little time for other people, especially since the closest anyone lives to my daughter's is like an hour and a half to 3.5 hours away, my vacation time is limited, as well as ability to take time off, small offices require coordination and that can be difficult, but I see myself visiting Florida more often and when I do, I will definitely let you know!

Hugs, Laureen

Good Morning Lynn, PA Folks. . .

So nice of you to pop in here and let everyone know what's going on with you.  Yay for your ability to get some of the work that will make you feel more at ease within the journey you've taken.   I keep hoping that one day I can do some myself, but for now it's a distant dream and life's responsibilities are where it's at for me.

Any chance you can make one of the October Barix meetings?  It would be great to see you, heck, even outside of the meeting. . .  you can PM me on that. . .

Last night's Barix meeting was really good, JoAnne celebrated her 1 year surgiversary and she has lost a whopping 155 lbs (or thereabouts) and she looks amazing, actually she is pretty amazing. . . then there were the handful of "oldtimers" there and a smattering of the newer folks, we had a very engaging discussion on topics such as recommitment and staying track, as well as various WOW moments, self realizations and such.  I was recently considering the idea of stepping away from the support group leadership role because of the inner turmoil I have about my "successing" but when I shared openly my thoughts and reasons, I got such wonderful feedback that it caused me to take a step back and realize how much the people that come each month give to me and mostly what I get is the knowledge that I am never alone with the thoughts that run through my mind and that their journey's inspire me in ways that keep me from ever becoming what I once was and so while others will be taking a more active approach in the coming year (at least I hope so ;)), I will continue to be an active participant so long as either I can or they let me. . .anyway. . .

This is my busy time of year, youngest daughter's birthday, son's wedding anniversary, nephew's birthday, son's birthday, grandson # 2's birthday, then grandson #1's birthday, followed with my DIL's birthday, sprinkle in there the fact that my oldest and dearest friend is having a farewell party on Friday night, as she has moved to Florida and is back to close her house in readiness for sale. . .  it's just a whirlwind and I am saddened as yet another old friend moves away, but I now have more places to visit in Florida than I have time to visit and more and more I feel drawn there, but for the immediate future I am tied here, maybe in 5 or so years things will be different.  I need more vacation time (lol).

Ok, long enough, got to work and earn my paycheck. . .  Lynn, have a wonderful day, hoping to see you when you're in PA, everyone else, please have a wonderful day and for any facing serious life challenges, I send my best thoughts and wishes for you!

Hugs, Laureen