sabotaging myself

Hi I am 14 months  out I started at 250 now at 171.  I feel like I am sabataging myself  I find myself eating things I shouldn't. I know when I am eating  stuff I shouldnt  but i do anyway.  My first issue after surgery was becoming a shopoholic I got past thatm now i have this issue Anyone else?? if so what have you done.

Best solution is to get that stuff out of the house. Many of us struggle with this. We become happy with where we are and temporarily forget where we came from. Time to re-evaluate and recommit.

Have you considered dealing with the issues that cause you to eat?  I am 4 years out and it was invaluable to be to work with a therapist to see why I was making the choices I was.  Do you have access to a nutritionist from your WLS doctor?  What about any type of support group?  DOn't know where in PA you are situated but I go to Barix in Langhorne for monthly support.  It has been very helpful to me.  Do you exercise?  It's not really something that I do but I try to take the steps as often as possible and park my car far away from the stores in the parking lot - any thing to add a few more steps to my daily total.  How about journaling and finding out what times are bad eating times or what types of foods spur you on.  ARe you getting enough protein and taking all of your vitamins and drinking your water?  These are all things that we were encouraged to do right after surgery and need to continue doing for the rest of our lives.  I have a hard time with eating too fast and drinking too soon after eating. 

Don't know if any of this is helpful but as they say in 12 step programs - take what you like and leave the rest.  Best of luck.

 

Donna

My WLS has social workers that I can go to.  I have decided to  see a therapisst  that deal with body image and eating disorders.

I do get enough protien  besides what I eat i do drink one protein drink a day and I take all the vitamins I am suppose to plus some. I have kinda back off on the excecise I have decided to get back on that train and with the weather cooling down I will walk the block twice a day  hoping that will help.   But I truly need to see a therapist  so I will see if my insurance  has one available in my in network I never thought about journaling but you are the 3rd person to recently ask me if I do.  So I will start one today (kinda find a pad) Thanks for your thoughts.

I think what you are experiencing is very common.  I know I really struggled with self-sabotage, as well as developing other addictions after surgery.  I went to some therapy and now use the 12-step program of Overeaters Anonymous in conjunction with weight loss surgery support group and a nutritionist to stay on the beam.  You did a wonderful thing by reaching out here.  I still believe support is key.  No one understand what happens to us like those of us who have been through it.  Barix in Langhorne has a meeting this Saturday from 11 a.m. to 1:30 p.m. -- open to everyone!

 

I know exactly what you mean, I am 6 months out, started at 303 now 219.  I am guilty too of eating things I know I shouldn't be, and I sometimes can't stop it for days.  I do it one day and I say "ok you fell today but tomorrow you will get back on track".  This is so much harder than I thought it would be.  Even though I attend every support meeting I can and my best friend just had the surgery 9/25 I can't seem to stay focused.  I try not to buy the things I know I shouldn't have but somehow I still find myself doing that when I go to the store. I actually avoid going to the store just so I don't buy anything bad. I swore before surgery I would not let this fail like all my past "diets" but everyday I see myself getting more out of control.  So yes if anyone has any great input please tell us because i do not want to be a failure at even gastric surgery. 

Sharon, the over eating and eating all the wrong things is really plaguing me.  I decided to reach out to a therapist who deals with obestity and eating disorders and also understand the surgery .  I have only had one meeting but i am very comfortable already.  I still ate a half a box of good and plenty and got that dumping feeling from all the sugar. UGH..  I saw a GYN doc today for my annual visit and as soon as I walked into the building there was a sign that they now have a Bistro down stairs as I was going into the elevator I thought hmmm I need to check that out to see if there is something I would like.  I left my appointment got in the elevator and went straight to the parking lot. I was so proud of myself until of course after I went to  the grocery store and got a big salad and some macaroni and cheese.,. what am I thinking.   even as I heat it up I say to myself I should throw it away, but why throw away perfectly good food so I ate it , It as definatly more then to 2 cups allowed I ate it pretty fast  and it was made with white pasta..  I don't know about your doc but mine says no white anything,, pasta, rice, potato and sugar.  then at around 6 i ate this huge salad and even now  almost an hour later i feel ucky!!!  I should have just gone outside and walked.  I wish I had a pal that also had the surgery near where I live so we can together talk these things through and would walk with me maybe that would give me some encorgement.