Just had to share somewhere

I was at an OA Big Book meeting last night.  We read the Chapter, "To Wives."  Can I just tell you that I HATE HATE HATE HATE that chapter?  It brought up so many bad memories of what it was like to live with an active addict, how many ways I tried to make him see he needed help -- the crying, begging, reasoning, ignoring, understanding, forgiving -- the emotions of sadness, frustration, anger, helplessness, hopelessness, defeat.  I was physically nauseous with the memories.  I shared about it and cried some. 

When I got home, I cleaned something, took some "sexy" pictures for Bill to find today (nothing graphic), and found my way back to the serenity, joy and peace that comes with recovery and that is so prevalent in my new life, knowing that I never had to live that way again.

Thank you all for being my friend through it all.  I love you.

Jill

You have gone through a really tough time and yet you are still standing.  You, my friend, are a survivor.  Enjoy your serenity, joy and peace.  Remember something that I am learning about now.  You have an emotional mind, a reasonable mind and a wise mind.  You always want to think with the wise mind and girl you have done that.

Love ya

Jeanne

Most people hate that chapter, when the women's BB group I attend on Friday evenings does that chapter, everyone groans and *****es, but there is still some good stuff there. . .  think Spiritual Experience and Herbert Spencer's quote ;)

Sounds like in some ways it was cathartic for you. . .

Love you Jill

Laureen

Jill,

((HUGS)) to you that you had to relive some bad memories! As Joanne said, you are a survivor!!

Glad you could share with us here!

Beth