I need an attitude adjustment

I'm eating lunch, and I hit my full point at 1/2 a sandwich.  And instead of feeling grateful and excited and elated, I feel angry.  I'm pissed off that I can't fini****  I'm irritated not that I'm wasting food, but that I don't get to taste more -- have MORE.  My sane brain tells me this is a good thing!  My sane brain tells me I can put it away and eat the rest for tomorrow's lunch, or a snack or dinner.  But my addict brain is throwing a little kiddie temper tantrum right now, complete with feet stomping.

Thank God I don't always feel this way.  And thank God I am not so defiant that I would stuff the rest of the sandwich down my throat just because.  (Not that I never have, but I'm not doing it just for today.)

I had to share and put these thoughts out into the universe of people who might understand.

Thanks.

OMG Jill, I can so relate to this, not today, but I have had that same feeling about not being able to finish all that is on my plate. . .  I want to continue to have that sensation of my tastebuds bursting with flavor and then there is the component that I was never allowed to leave anything on my plate. . .  however, like you, my sane brain (when it is sane that is), tells me this is wonderful and that the old way of life is what led me to where I was once and where I began to go when my scale numbers started moving in the wrong direction. . .  this past weekend at my son's beach house, he was showing Sami pictures from when she was little and other things, one of the pictures he came across was of me taken in his house as it was being built, I think it was in the Summer of 2005, which would be two years before my surgery, well the reality of what I looked like in that picture and the idea that I, at that time, thought I looked great, was really tellling, as well as helped me with where I'm at today. . .  anyway, I get it and our addictive minds are just so distorted when it comes to food, but doesn't it feel good when you have that clarity to say, Not today, today I will do what I know is the right thing for me. . .

Hugs, L

Jill,

I can TOTALLY relate to those feelings!! I, too have had those feelings. I then have to remind myself that if I eat more than I should that I WILL pay for it later and is it REALLY worth it??? Nope....

I DO NOT want to go back to where I started. I was not a happy person and you can so see that in my before picture!

((HUGS))
Beth

 Jill-
I know exactly how you feel. I just remember 2 sayings to make me feel better:

Nothing tastes as good as thin feels
Better to go to waste then to waist

That usually helps me out. BeIng thin for me means being healthier and frankly being alive. I was dying of diabetic kidney disease and now (well not exactly now because I am recovering from surgery and sick right now) I can do so much more than I even dreamed was possible. 
Good luck & stay positive!

-Sara

Ps: I thought I caught a bug when I went back to work yesterday.  Dr thinks it may be something else. I am to have a bunch of fasting blood work tomorrow. Hope it isn't anything serious. On a positive note, the plastics incisions are healing nicely. Doesn't matter how sick I am - I am loving not having the ab skin:)

 Oh I totally understand this is my absolute most difficult situation that I deal with, I don't have as much trouble forgoing foods I am not supposed to eat but man oh man not eating too much of the foods I am allowed to, GRUMPY girl when I have to put that food down at three bites

 Jill,
I have that problem during most meals.  Depending on what it is, I tell myself that I get to enjoy that meal more than once, and save it for the next day.  Last week, my sis-n-law barbecued steaks, and made a terrific salad I had never thought of, and we had some delicious sweet corn on the cob.  I could barely make a dent in any of it, and we packed it up for take home, and wouldn't you know it, I left it at her house.  It was late when I got home and realized my forgetfulness.  The next day, I couldn't get over to her place after she got done work because I had to be in Jersey for the evening.  Darn.  

 Hi!  It has been a very long time since I've posted and seen you!  I am not sure you remember me.  :-). 

I totally understand!  I am so glad I came on today and saw your post. Thank you for posting!  Thank you!

I do remember and it's nice to see you again!!!

Hi Georgianne, I remember you too and echo Jill's good to see you!

Laureen

Hi there!!  Good to see you both, too!

Good to see the boards still active.  That's great!  I need to come on and be here more.