Very raw emotion sorry if it is upsetting

nicole, I know that some therapy tends to deal with past trauma and hurt but we have no control over our past.
We've debated things before but the underlying feeling I've gotten from your posts were they are sincere and coming from a good person.
Sometimes you need a new therapist if you don't feel like you are moving forward.

I see the way people on here that know you and respond to you.  You are not alone.  Hugs

thank you roger

Now I need a shrink cause I'm talking to myself.

Nicole

I am so feeling for you.  I don't think a day has gone by in the last year that I haven't cried my eyes out.  All over past life experiences and failures that I have experienced.  I just had my knee replaced so right now I am struggling with getting back on my feet and getting back to losing the weight that i re put on and also the rest that I never did lose. 

I can understand how you feel.  I am no expert but I do know that the answers have to come from deep inside you.  I am sitting here typing this crying my eyes out not just for me but also because it is so hard to see someone going through this and not know how to console them.

My plan is to finish my rehab, go back to work and then find a therapist.  The chemical piece of my therapy is still in the try and see if it works stage.

Please try and hang in there.  Please know that there are people that care about you even though we only know each other from this board.  Stay strong, you are one of the most beautiful people that I have met on this board.

I will include you in my prayers as every little bit helps.


Jeanne

Thank you so much Jeanne progress can be very painful

I removed the post and placed it on my blog because I felt it was too revealing and I remembered that I have professional connections here

 Nic, I'm so sorry you are struggling so much with this.  But, I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to put it down and get it out of your system.  That was a huge step.

Dealing with past trauma is difficult.  Are you both going to therapy? I'm sure if you go to some sessions together, it will help you BOTH to understand and deal better with what you are BOTH going through.  

As a therapist, you clinically understand.  But, since it is YOU and YOUR LIFE, it is completely different.  I am concerned about you both and I wish you nothing but happiness and peace.  I hope to G-d you can find it.  It will all be worth it in the end.