Wait. The scale IS my friend?
I have been an anti-scale person since, oh, let's say the 2nd grade. Even after WLS, I didn't own a scale. I only got weighed at doctor's visits. That's how I found out about my 45 pound regain. At some point last year I decided to buy a scale because I figured I would write down everything I ate and watch to see what happened with the scale. If the scale was going down, then I was eating correctly. If the scale was going up, I needed to make adjustments to my diet.
But I did not want the scale to rule my life or define who I am, and I really had this hate/hate relationship with the thing, even when it was heading in the right direction.
Well, I've been on track for several months, losing that 45 pounds. I KNOW that when I eat according to my plan (which is a good one given to me by Barix, and supported by the nutritionist and my OA sponsor), I maintain a comfortable weight level, and am happy with what I am eating. So, when a couple of weeks ago I started deviating from my plan, it should not have surprised me that the scale number would start creeping up. And, then, true to my old nature, I kept "forgetting" to step on the scale in the morning. And then one morning (I believe it was last Saturday) when I remembered, there was a 5 pound weight gain. Oops.
And my head wanted to tell me all sorts of shameful things! It wanted to call me names and tell me what a failure I am. But, hey, I've done a lot of growing up this year and told the voices in my head to shut up and let me get on with living. I picked back up my tools, including my food scale, my plan of eating and my journaling, and unbelievably, less than a week later, my weight is back to "normal".
Ttoday that I am very grateful to have caught the gain at 5 and not 45; to not have had to switch up my pant size again; to have the tools to use to undo temporary "damage;" and for all the support and encouragement I get from this site, Barix meetings and OA.
Thanks for letting me share.
But I did not want the scale to rule my life or define who I am, and I really had this hate/hate relationship with the thing, even when it was heading in the right direction.
Well, I've been on track for several months, losing that 45 pounds. I KNOW that when I eat according to my plan (which is a good one given to me by Barix, and supported by the nutritionist and my OA sponsor), I maintain a comfortable weight level, and am happy with what I am eating. So, when a couple of weeks ago I started deviating from my plan, it should not have surprised me that the scale number would start creeping up. And, then, true to my old nature, I kept "forgetting" to step on the scale in the morning. And then one morning (I believe it was last Saturday) when I remembered, there was a 5 pound weight gain. Oops.
And my head wanted to tell me all sorts of shameful things! It wanted to call me names and tell me what a failure I am. But, hey, I've done a lot of growing up this year and told the voices in my head to shut up and let me get on with living. I picked back up my tools, including my food scale, my plan of eating and my journaling, and unbelievably, less than a week later, my weight is back to "normal".
Ttoday that I am very grateful to have caught the gain at 5 and not 45; to not have had to switch up my pant size again; to have the tools to use to undo temporary "damage;" and for all the support and encouragement I get from this site, Barix meetings and OA.
Thanks for letting me share.
Blessings, Jill
WLS 5/31/07. Maintaining a weight loss of 141 pounds and feeling amazing!
Jill,
I am so proud of you for catching it in its early stages. You have been doing a great job, especially considering all your other worries over the past months with your family. Keep on keeping on girl you are doing a great job!!!!
Hugs, Ena
I am so proud of you for catching it in its early stages. You have been doing a great job, especially considering all your other worries over the past months with your family. Keep on keeping on girl you are doing a great job!!!!
Hugs, Ena
"Journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step."
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