Brain - Stomach Disconnect

As I continue to work a 12-step program to combat my compulsive nature, and as I revise my plan of eating to to address that and to follow nutrionist and surgeon advice, I find a serious disconnect between my stomach and my brain!  I remember in the early days after surgery referring to "head hunger."  Does this ever go away?  I sit with my portioned food.  I look at it.  I cry that it will never be enough.  I eat it.  My stomach is satisfied, but my brain is still screaming for more!  I need more food!  I'll starve to death!  Clearly, my addict brain is over dramatic.   While I have been winning this battle more often than losing it lately, as evidenced by my 4 pound weight loss this month, and 18 pound total weight loss since starting OA, I'd like to get opinions, suggestions, sympathy, understanding, etc. from my WLS buddies. 

Thanks.

I feel the same way. It is this fear that keeps me from being abstinent I fear I will die....i will starve,,what will become of me if I do?? But I totally understand your anxiety, and the lack of acceptance even when your body tells you that you are full

 Jill,
I have not been able to get abstinent since relapsing with the alcohol.  Nor can I get sugar free  .Right now, I feel very hopeless.  My mind thinks I will go nuts if I don't get the sugar, and eat when and what I want.  

When I saw Dr. Marymor last week, he suggested something drastic, which I will give a try after I am recuperated from my toe surgery next week.  It's a 2 week liquid protein diet, which I am willing to try to detox off the sugar  I want to wait till I am recuperated because I will be in a huge amount of physical pain, and can't feel deprived while dealing with physical pain.  I have my limits.

I have to get back to that Saturday morning OA meeting.  I also need to work on my Step work better, and self-soothe through the temptatiions.  

Thanks for your honesty.

Hugs,
Trish