Depression?

Just wanted to add, you are not a FAILURE, from time to time, we all need help, smart of you to realize it and get it sooner than later. . .

Hugs, Laureen

Lynn -
You pulled those words form my journal didn't you?

Projects - everywhere. Work, home, crafts, books, all started and half ass done when they are done at all. When it comes to work, I have good days and bad days. Today, would be a bad day. I just can't focus. See, here I am drafting a long ass reply to your post. I should be working on Columbia docs...

The wonder that is my smart phone is slowly turning into the crutch that is an addiction. Between Facebook, OH, Words with Friends, texting - I feel like it is never out of my hands.

Sex - well, I've waited a long time to finally have sex again, and when I did it was great. That said, I'm in no rush to jump back into bed. I kinda feel like I got it out of the way - what next?

But, I'm in the opposite of you in that I seem to never sleep anymore. In fact I'm rarely home. My nights and weekends are full. On one hand that's awesome, but I also am starting to wonder why I can't seem to settle and just relax in my home. Even nights I don't have plans, I find myself in the car looking for things to do instead of going home. I used to be a real homebody. And while I don't want to go back to that I need to learn to have some kind of middle ground on the before and after Cherish.

Take this weekend for example. Friday night I am going to visit with an old friend, and will stay the night out. Home for a few hours (maybe) Saturday afternoon, then off to Beth's to sit with Dee. Sleeping there, then home for a few hours. Then dinner with friends Sunday night. And Monday is a tentative barbeque at another friend's house. All of these things take extra travel time as well.

Nowhere in there did I leave enough time for, oh I don't know, laundry or relaxing with a good book. When I got the invite for Sunday, I should have looked at my fully booked weekend and said "No thank you." But I guess part of me is the same "fat" Cherish that wants everyone to be her friend. If I said no, would I get invited back???

Wow, didn't mean to take over your post. I think there is no shame in talking to your doc about this. Maybe you do need a small dose of something, or maybe it's hormonal as someone else suggested. The fact that you reached out to discuss it makes it a very real thing.

Maybe I need to take my own advice...

SAY WHAT????

Cherish I do understand the run run run effect..I feel like I may miss something if I stay home. It is hard to do but I am working on slowing down. Really! I still also feel guilt when I say no but working on it as well.

Love you! 

Love you too!!
And, all the above said – we need to get together! I know Cyd is coming to see you to check out dresses for the cruise one night, I figure I’ll come with and maybe we can grab dinner or something?  

When are you doing this?!?!  Come get me?!?!  Or - I will meet you all! :)  YAY!!!!  Love how I jumped in and invited myself?!?!?!

Well I invite myself to your house too...so that is how we roll! 

Yes, we can do that one night all have dinner and she can check out dresses. I opened my back closet today and I found a bunch I had forgotten about . Whoops! 

 I KNEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

We need a "Like" button!
Brat!

Run Run Run can also be dangerous because it is avoidance.

Gotta find balance girl

Oh and when did THAT happen?? LOL