Need to vent....
Hello my fellow pa peeps,
I just need to vent if you don't mind me bending your ears.
I had a HORRIBLE eating day today. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me today but I started out doing well. I walked my 3 miles this morning. Came back and made my breakfast and lunch while drinking my 24 oz of water. Got ready for work. Drank my protein shake on my way to work. Then about an hour and half later I ate an oz of almonds (about 20). Not even 2 hours later I was eating my Chobani yogurt. By noon, I was chomping at the bit wanted my tuna salad. I made myself wait till 12:30. Had the tuna salad and half cup of sf fruit ****tail AND snack size sf Jello mousse. Then about 3:15-3:30 I had a granola bar. (I've been craving crunchy/salty). All the while I drank 60 oz of decaf iced tea and water. Right before leaving work, Cherish came to me and asked if I wanted to split her coconut and chocolate protein bar. I'm still a fat girl inside so of course I said sure!! Now on my way home from work, I only live 4 miles from work, I'm thinking what am I going to have for dinner. My better half has already left for work so it's just me for dinner. I decided to have a serving of the Lean Cuisine spring rolls. BTW, if you haven't tried them, YOU MUST! They are yummy. So I popped them in the microwave. Now they only take 2 1/2 minutes plus about a minute after taking them out of the microwave to cool a bit. Apparently, this was not fast enough for me, I went reaching for melba toasts. Had 3 of them.
I also heated up the rest of the veggies leftover from last nights dinner. After dinner, had to run to Walmart to make an exchange and bought a pb Supreme protein bar and ate it on the way home. Now here i sit confessing my sins to my friends. I am by know means looking for sympathy but more of a kick in the ass. I just don't know what came over me today. I am finishing my 24 oz of water and going to bed.
Hopefully tomorrow I will have a clearer head!
Sorry this was long. Thanks for listening.
Love you all,
Cyd
I just need to vent if you don't mind me bending your ears.
I had a HORRIBLE eating day today. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me today but I started out doing well. I walked my 3 miles this morning. Came back and made my breakfast and lunch while drinking my 24 oz of water. Got ready for work. Drank my protein shake on my way to work. Then about an hour and half later I ate an oz of almonds (about 20). Not even 2 hours later I was eating my Chobani yogurt. By noon, I was chomping at the bit wanted my tuna salad. I made myself wait till 12:30. Had the tuna salad and half cup of sf fruit ****tail AND snack size sf Jello mousse. Then about 3:15-3:30 I had a granola bar. (I've been craving crunchy/salty). All the while I drank 60 oz of decaf iced tea and water. Right before leaving work, Cherish came to me and asked if I wanted to split her coconut and chocolate protein bar. I'm still a fat girl inside so of course I said sure!! Now on my way home from work, I only live 4 miles from work, I'm thinking what am I going to have for dinner. My better half has already left for work so it's just me for dinner. I decided to have a serving of the Lean Cuisine spring rolls. BTW, if you haven't tried them, YOU MUST! They are yummy. So I popped them in the microwave. Now they only take 2 1/2 minutes plus about a minute after taking them out of the microwave to cool a bit. Apparently, this was not fast enough for me, I went reaching for melba toasts. Had 3 of them.
I also heated up the rest of the veggies leftover from last nights dinner. After dinner, had to run to Walmart to make an exchange and bought a pb Supreme protein bar and ate it on the way home. Now here i sit confessing my sins to my friends. I am by know means looking for sympathy but more of a kick in the ass. I just don't know what came over me today. I am finishing my 24 oz of water and going to bed.
Hopefully tomorrow I will have a clearer head!
Sorry this was long. Thanks for listening.
Love you all,
Cyd
Cyd,
We have all had days like this - It is the head hunger that is the deadliest. You just beat yourself up publicly and pick yourself up, don't let it get you down - focus on work tomorrow, not the food waiting for you. The more you think about it, the more you tempt yourself. Easier said than done, I know
You can do it... and tell that Cherish chic not to tempt you ;)
xoxo,
Maura
We have all had days like this - It is the head hunger that is the deadliest. You just beat yourself up publicly and pick yourself up, don't let it get you down - focus on work tomorrow, not the food waiting for you. The more you think about it, the more you tempt yourself. Easier said than done, I know
You can do it... and tell that Cherish chic not to tempt you ;)
xoxo,
Maura
Maura
This has happened to all of us.
Remember to STOP
Event, Thought, Feeilng, Impulse, Behavior.
All things follow this order in our minds. Eating is never mindless. See if you can trace the steps back and see what the event is that caused you to have thoughts then feelings, then impulses to eat and then eating.
remember you only had surgery on your stomach, old ways come back and we have to confront them head on and re-teach ourselves how to eat, deal with stress etc. Nothing wrong with you at all. This is just an opportunity to learn.
Remember to STOP
Event, Thought, Feeilng, Impulse, Behavior.
All things follow this order in our minds. Eating is never mindless. See if you can trace the steps back and see what the event is that caused you to have thoughts then feelings, then impulses to eat and then eating.
remember you only had surgery on your stomach, old ways come back and we have to confront them head on and re-teach ourselves how to eat, deal with stress etc. Nothing wrong with you at all. This is just an opportunity to learn.
Honey it happens to me all the time. It doesn't make it right, it doesn't make it better. It just happens. The addict takes over and we go crazy.
You know what you did RIGHT? You felt bad about it. You admitted that you did it. AND YOU DRANK 108 oz of decaf liquids plus whatever was in the shake. Plus you KNOW what you ate. That is not mindless. When I go on my benders, I could not even begin to restate what I ate. That in itself is a good thing.
Today is a new day. Start over and remember what you did, but don't dwell on it.
You know what you did RIGHT? You felt bad about it. You admitted that you did it. AND YOU DRANK 108 oz of decaf liquids plus whatever was in the shake. Plus you KNOW what you ate. That is not mindless. When I go on my benders, I could not even begin to restate what I ate. That in itself is a good thing.
Today is a new day. Start over and remember what you did, but don't dwell on it.
My tracker
hers 
Great Post cause I had a day like that too.....morning I should say......STOPPED myself......but have a question....How does are stomach (pouch ) hold our binging......I wish I dumped...and I do not throw up or get foamies anymore!!!???
Today is a New Day.....Been to the Y already! Off to work....Then a Support meeting at Abington!!!
Today is a New Day.....Been to the Y already! Off to work....Then a Support meeting at Abington!!!
Cyd, you're human! I have days where I can barely eat anything - then other days I want to eat from the time my eyes open until they close at night. I know it's weird but it happens. And from what I read you made GOOD food choices - you didn't reach for pizza or cookies or candy or anything like that - so be proud of that. And it was a day - you vented - you'll get past it and back on your regular eating routine.
Kathy
Kathy
'One shoe can change your life'...Cinderella
Sometimes, when I have eating days like that, I have to go deeper. "What am I eating?" Not the food, but the emotion. I know I have eaten sadness, guilt, loneliness, anger and fear. It's not always about emotions, but sometimes it really is, and I have to take the time to look underneat the food to see what is driving the compulsive eating.
Blessings, Jill
WLS 5/31/07. Maintaining a weight loss of 141 pounds and feeling amazing!
Everyone else is smarter than me and have already said this better - You're only human! And like Lisa said, at least you made healthy eating choices. I would have headed right for the potato chips.
Get back on the proverbial horse today.
Love you!
Get back on the proverbial horse today.
Love you!
Cherish
Consult Weight/ Surgery Weight/Current Weight/ Goal Weight, Reached 4/7/11!!
294 286.5 165.5 164
Full abdominoplasty & Breast Reduction/Lift - 4/9/12!
Even miracles take a little time. ~ Cinderella
Consult Weight/ Surgery Weight/Current Weight/ Goal Weight, Reached 4/7/11!!
294 286.5 165.5 164
Full abdominoplasty & Breast Reduction/Lift - 4/9/12!
Even miracles take a little time. ~ Cinderella
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