Don't know what to do!

I totally agree that it is not up to my plastics guy to tell me how I am doing, but he sees me mostly naked and I want to look my best and most definitely feel my best and I don't.  Why is it NOT uncommon to gain weight - and I so want to NOT be a statistic - no matter how mathy I am!  hee hee - see - I AM trying to find the humor here.......and yes - moderation is a BIG issue for me - I throw myself into EVERYTHING and don't ever have the ability to find the balance.  I do so much self-talk that I often feel I am talking to myself in circles....it is such a frustration!

I understand and it will be ok

hugs, Steffi - sounds like you're going through a very challenging time right now but the important thing is you recognize it, and you know what to do. We say it all the time and it is so true - they can operate on our stomachs but not our heads - that's all up to us. As for the libido issue I say enjoy your husband as much as you can! I think that part is fabulous!! As for being perfect?? There is no such creature - even skinny models are air-brushed!

You pat yourself on the back - be proud of all you have accomplished - and move forward.

Kathy

Part of me wonders if it is a "self-induced" challenging time.  Either way - yes I am......I am wondering if I can actually DO what I need to do.  I read some others and you all feel I do and I can - now I need to work on agreeing with you all!  And as for the libido.....DAAAAAAMMMMMNNNNN!!!!!!  Larry jokes that I may break him soon!  HA HA HA!  It is amazing and I do love the new things that my body can do!  And I intellectually understand the not perfect thing - but I really really really wanted a flat belly......ugh!  I will get there!!!!!!!!!  (I may only enjoy the moment for a day, but I will get there!)

Thanks! :)

I think you are in the same boat as all of us.  I would venture to guess everyone is not happy witht they way they look sometimes/most of the time.  We all have issues journalling, some more than others.  We all have issues with exercise, some more than others.  We ALL have this to some degree.  (which is why you love us and our imperfect selves).

There will never ever be perfection, only acceptance.  (just my opinion and it may not count for much).  The bigger thing is loving yourself, trying your best and remembering there is always another day to fight the demons. 

I can find every excuse in the book to eat the wrong thing, not exercise or feel bad about myself... the harder part is MAKING myself choose the right thing, go exercise and feel good about my accomplishments.

YOU ARE AMAZING.  YOU ARE ACCOMPLISHED.  YOU JUST DON'T KNOW IT.  :-)


Loves to you in this struggle. 

Now advice... split your time with hubby and the gym.  Make hubby your reward!!!  If you go to the gym.. you get hubby time.  I think that may be a big motivator. 

I agree that we all have similar issues - and that we REALLY need to have each others backs so to speak - that is why the entire drive home from the surgeon yesterday I was already contemplating my words for this post. I got home, hugged Larry, and I all had to do was look at him and then the computer.  He would normally be annoyed that I would head to the computer - but he knew immediately what I needed to do - and allowed me that time to put it into words to all of you.  As for acceptance - I am working on it!  I am trying to love myself, most times I do - and I HATE HATE HATE the demons...there I said it! :)  HA HA! :) Thanks! :)

Sandra, I am holding on to that sentence....There will never be perfection, only acceptance. So profound. So true. We some how think that life...and we...will be perfect once we lose x number of pounds. But life doesn't work quite that way. Love your insight!

Hey there missy...

I know you are struggling and it is frustrating.  I am right there with ya.

How about we do this together?  We both need to get back on track in one or more ways.   Can you start with just one thing for just one day?  I know I will not be getting to the gym because of the way I feel.  BUT, JUST FOR TODAY, I am NOT going to have any flavored water of any sort.  I will drink ONLY water and no crystal lite.  That is my commitment for the day.  I will also work on other things throughout the day.  BUT, as long as I don't drink any Crystal Lite today, I will consider it a successful day.

What can you do JUST FOR TODAY? 

OK - so I am thinking about the one thing I can do today - I CAN get to the pool.  I have all my things in the car - I love to swim and I CAN do at the least a half mile.  (I was up to more than a mile 6 weeks ago.)  If I can push without feeling any pain in my calves, I will try to do more.  How is the no flavored water doing for you so far?  Thanks honey! :)

good job.. get to the pool.. stretch those calves first.. You can do it!!

I'm doing well so far.. had coffee this morning, but jus****er since then.