The wow was for naught
The hole is my safe place away from hurtful people and feeling. Its a good place although lonely. When he took away my wow it was like becoming a reject. I guess being a reject is safer than believing some fantasy that I was fitting into the world. I'm not ready for the world yet. But when I am, look out.
Some days your the dog and some days your the hydrant.
Nan,
I understand totally. For me the WOW would have been something that I thought would never have happened. For someone to actually find me attractive in the physical sense was something that I thought would never happen. It still hasn't but I am liking what I am seeing in the mirror more and more. The more I like what I see, the less I am looking for it from someone else. But I do get you - it is a mourning for you. Another time in our lives that someone has taken something from us. Let yourself feel your grief but try not to hide away. You have done such a great job and are an inspiration to some many other people. I can only let someone have power over me if I give it to them. Don't know what else to say but know that there are a lot of people here that love and support you. Let those feelings surround you and enfold you. Take care.
Donna
I understand totally. For me the WOW would have been something that I thought would never have happened. For someone to actually find me attractive in the physical sense was something that I thought would never happen. It still hasn't but I am liking what I am seeing in the mirror more and more. The more I like what I see, the less I am looking for it from someone else. But I do get you - it is a mourning for you. Another time in our lives that someone has taken something from us. Let yourself feel your grief but try not to hide away. You have done such a great job and are an inspiration to some many other people. I can only let someone have power over me if I give it to them. Don't know what else to say but know that there are a lot of people here that love and support you. Let those feelings surround you and enfold you. Take care.
Donna
I saw an old friend after I had lost about 135 lbs and she said 'Wow, you've lost a lot of weight - you're really aged' - so yeah, I get what you're saying - made you feel really good then the jerk yanked the rug out from under you.
Always trust your instincts...
'One shoe can change your life'...Cinderella
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