Passion. 2 1/2 years out. ???
Ok...so Nicole's post brought the right words to my mind.
Where is my passion? How did it get lost?
I'm not totally off track. I keep track of my protein...I stay away from sugar...I watch fat intake. Carbs have been, and always will be, a struggle for me.
But I'm not that PASSIONATE about my every day activities, my life in general, if you will, and especially about my post op life. Exercise has yet again taken a back seat (ok...who am I kidding...it's still at the bus stop WAITING for a seat)
I haven't gained weight...but I haven't lost the 5-10 pounds I wanted to lose either.
And it's not *just* the health issues. Very very VERY rarely do I feel like "being" at work. I don't HATE my job...I still like it...I just don't want to do it....because it's the "same" I know looking in from the outside you're saying "HOW is the emergency room the SAME every time" Well....it just is. Every once in awhile you get something interesting....but mostly...chest pain, nausea, abdominal pain, headache, repeat. IV line, labs, meds, CT, repeat. The people are different...the process, drugs, tests, outcomes, are the same.
Almost everything seems "the same" to me...dinners...work...computers...whatever.
Suggestions on how to get out of a funk, especially regarding my health?
I know there is a LOT of stuff emotionally tolling on me....with all the stuff with my brother, my grandparents...brian's parents ALWAYS have drama....I get my thyroid levels done this week so I'm "worried" that they still won't be quite right and just want a darn fix on them already.....
Where do you go from here?
Where is my passion? How did it get lost?
I'm not totally off track. I keep track of my protein...I stay away from sugar...I watch fat intake. Carbs have been, and always will be, a struggle for me.
But I'm not that PASSIONATE about my every day activities, my life in general, if you will, and especially about my post op life. Exercise has yet again taken a back seat (ok...who am I kidding...it's still at the bus stop WAITING for a seat)
I haven't gained weight...but I haven't lost the 5-10 pounds I wanted to lose either.
And it's not *just* the health issues. Very very VERY rarely do I feel like "being" at work. I don't HATE my job...I still like it...I just don't want to do it....because it's the "same" I know looking in from the outside you're saying "HOW is the emergency room the SAME every time" Well....it just is. Every once in awhile you get something interesting....but mostly...chest pain, nausea, abdominal pain, headache, repeat. IV line, labs, meds, CT, repeat. The people are different...the process, drugs, tests, outcomes, are the same.
Almost everything seems "the same" to me...dinners...work...computers...whatever.
Suggestions on how to get out of a funk, especially regarding my health?
I know there is a LOT of stuff emotionally tolling on me....with all the stuff with my brother, my grandparents...brian's parents ALWAYS have drama....I get my thyroid levels done this week so I'm "worried" that they still won't be quite right and just want a darn fix on them already.....
Where do you go from here?
Instead of complaining that the rosebush has thorns, be happy that the thorn bush has roses. 
Well Pam, when you figure it out, let me know. Complacency is tough. Whether it be in life, work or our post-WLS life. I feel like I'm in that funk sometimes too. I am so thankful for this group when it comes to my post-WLS life, it makes me feel accountable. For me, sometimes I hate how much work life is and I simply get lazy. I still follow the basic rules because I have to, but I don't go the extra mile.
So, I have no good advice. I will leave that to the ones who know just the right thing to say....Karen, Nicole, there are more but those two jump out. Just know that you are not alone and definitely not the only one feeling this way....
So, I have no good advice. I will leave that to the ones who know just the right thing to say....Karen, Nicole, there are more but those two jump out. Just know that you are not alone and definitely not the only one feeling this way....
Good morning Pam,
Seems to me that you are doing phenomenal at keeping your weight off and dealing with the very many stressful issues that you have on your shoulders right now. You are certainly heavily involved in the OH board so I would hardly you say that you are slacking. Maybe not doing as much as you would like, but definitely not a slacker. I am sure your involvement and that tremendous help that you give to me and others, also helps to keep yourself on track.
For me, what helps to get a little bit more focused is to be sure I am planning, tracking the foods I eat, and challenging myself to do a little more each week. Sometimes, just changing something and just a little bit, will help to get that fire ignited. For example, maybe you have a routine where you take an elevator everyday, try using the stairs instead. Maybe take a walk for 5 min, or even 3 min to just start yourself and the following week add another min. or two. Even though this is like nothing, it will make you feel good that you took a baby step in the right direction, and make you feel better about yourself, and hopefully begin to motivate you more and more.
Just don't forget how far you have come and how wonderful you are doing, and how great you are. I know that I am not the only one in the room that appreciates you!!!
Geoff
Seems to me that you are doing phenomenal at keeping your weight off and dealing with the very many stressful issues that you have on your shoulders right now. You are certainly heavily involved in the OH board so I would hardly you say that you are slacking. Maybe not doing as much as you would like, but definitely not a slacker. I am sure your involvement and that tremendous help that you give to me and others, also helps to keep yourself on track.
For me, what helps to get a little bit more focused is to be sure I am planning, tracking the foods I eat, and challenging myself to do a little more each week. Sometimes, just changing something and just a little bit, will help to get that fire ignited. For example, maybe you have a routine where you take an elevator everyday, try using the stairs instead. Maybe take a walk for 5 min, or even 3 min to just start yourself and the following week add another min. or two. Even though this is like nothing, it will make you feel good that you took a baby step in the right direction, and make you feel better about yourself, and hopefully begin to motivate you more and more.
Just don't forget how far you have come and how wonderful you are doing, and how great you are. I know that I am not the only one in the room that appreciates you!!!
Geoff
Thanks Geoff - your words really hit home. And I appreciate the compliments as well, very much so as a matter of fact.
Interesting about the 3-5 minute walk. Because you know what...I NEVER would have thought of that. Because I tend to be an all or nothing type of girl. If I'm not doing my 45 min spin class and weights..then I'm not doing anything. I'll definately work on changing little things one step at a time :)
Interesting about the 3-5 minute walk. Because you know what...I NEVER would have thought of that. Because I tend to be an all or nothing type of girl. If I'm not doing my 45 min spin class and weights..then I'm not doing anything. I'll definately work on changing little things one step at a time :)
Instead of complaining that the rosebush has thorns, be happy that the thorn bush has roses.
Pam you know I love ya but this is what I see, and it is spoken from someone who does the same thing.
You are burdened. You dont have the luxury of passion. You are working two jobs. I am assuming you are the main bread winner of the family, That is pressure. You are the one everyone in your family goes to, that is pressure. You are having health issues resurect that maybe you had hoped would go away or resolve with surgery. You are not putting yourself first.
Hell you are not even putting yourself second. When I feel " off " like i do now, or when I have a client who feels unbalanced I have them draw a big circle. Make slices of that circle like a pie, and put in each piece the important things about your life. for example. Mine would be family, career, love, fun. health, friends. excercise, good food choices, spiritual health. Then I have them draw another circle and make the pieces of the pie, represent how much energy is being put into each one. Right now for me? Career would be 1/2 of my pie. Family would be 1/4 and all those other things would be crammed into the rest, some of them not even making it on like, excercise or spiritual. Soo. it is about getting the pie back in shape. Working on making changes until all the slices have their proper proportion.
I hope this helps in some way
You are burdened. You dont have the luxury of passion. You are working two jobs. I am assuming you are the main bread winner of the family, That is pressure. You are the one everyone in your family goes to, that is pressure. You are having health issues resurect that maybe you had hoped would go away or resolve with surgery. You are not putting yourself first.
Hell you are not even putting yourself second. When I feel " off " like i do now, or when I have a client who feels unbalanced I have them draw a big circle. Make slices of that circle like a pie, and put in each piece the important things about your life. for example. Mine would be family, career, love, fun. health, friends. excercise, good food choices, spiritual health. Then I have them draw another circle and make the pieces of the pie, represent how much energy is being put into each one. Right now for me? Career would be 1/2 of my pie. Family would be 1/4 and all those other things would be crammed into the rest, some of them not even making it on like, excercise or spiritual. Soo. it is about getting the pie back in shape. Working on making changes until all the slices have their proper proportion.
I hope this helps in some way
I absolutely know you love me (along with so many others on this board) and that's why I come here with posts like this. I don't expect glitter and butterflies to be blown up my butt so to speak, I expect, and NEED the truth. If I'm not ready to "handle the truth" (channelling my top gun persona there, lol) then I don't post :)
I really appreciate your insight. Oddly enough...Brian and I had to do this for an exercise for pre kana (the thing the church makes you do before they think you can get married) and I hadn't thought of it since. It might be something I need to do again, and fairly quickly.
The thyroid issue I think is weighing the most heavily on me. My family, although turning to me for advice, is handling things well, and really....I'm not relied on as much (except for my grandfather...but really that's JUST going to the doctors appointments. My mom is doing almost everything for them....) My thyroid did REALLY well after surgery, and even when it wasn't, it was a "quick" fix. One med dose and I was ready to roll. The fact that I can't get a grip on it with THREE different dose changes is weighing on me. Anyway.....we'll find that out today
Thanks as always :)
I really appreciate your insight. Oddly enough...Brian and I had to do this for an exercise for pre kana (the thing the church makes you do before they think you can get married) and I hadn't thought of it since. It might be something I need to do again, and fairly quickly.
The thyroid issue I think is weighing the most heavily on me. My family, although turning to me for advice, is handling things well, and really....I'm not relied on as much (except for my grandfather...but really that's JUST going to the doctors appointments. My mom is doing almost everything for them....) My thyroid did REALLY well after surgery, and even when it wasn't, it was a "quick" fix. One med dose and I was ready to roll. The fact that I can't get a grip on it with THREE different dose changes is weighing on me. Anyway.....we'll find that out today
Thanks as always :)
Instead of complaining that the rosebush has thorns, be happy that the thorn bush has roses.
What she said lol
Have a baby - that shakes everying up LOL OK so at least I made you smile right?
But my suggestion isn't that far off - do something to shake up things. I am not one to talk - I thrive on routine and structure but as of late I am in a funk too (blaming it on late pregnancy hormones).
Do something for you - everyday 1 thing for you. Nicole had made a great post about this a while back - I think I'll go start the thread again. I believe that your "Strive for" was to have a self care ritual - come home, take off your makeup, wash your face etc. (memory might have totally failed me here). MAybe it is to come home from work and take a bubble bath - who knows. Just something everyday for you because you, like myself, are the one that everyone in the family goes to because we are always there and always say YES.
*hugs*
Liz
Have a baby - that shakes everying up LOL OK so at least I made you smile right?
But my suggestion isn't that far off - do something to shake up things. I am not one to talk - I thrive on routine and structure but as of late I am in a funk too (blaming it on late pregnancy hormones).
Do something for you - everyday 1 thing for you. Nicole had made a great post about this a while back - I think I'll go start the thread again. I believe that your "Strive for" was to have a self care ritual - come home, take off your makeup, wash your face etc. (memory might have totally failed me here). MAybe it is to come home from work and take a bubble bath - who knows. Just something everyday for you because you, like myself, are the one that everyone in the family goes to because we are always there and always say YES.
*hugs*
Liz
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