Hi Family,
I need a shoulder to cry on, and prayer.  I hope you don't think this is trivial, because it is important to me.

I need prayer in the next week.  I learned tonight that I can no longer get my outpatient treatment at Malvern, as I had been getting since rehab.  I am devastated by this turn of events.  I really felt hopeful with the therapist I had and the group I was in.  The change had to do with my medical insurance.  Somebody at Malvern pissed off Magellan, the managed mental health provider for Personal Choice.

I spent two hours when I got home trying to find a new treatment program for my group therapy, and found a place in Yardley.  Please pray as I make this transition.  I go for the intake on Friday, and hope to start group on Monday.  I am anxious as I had a really negative experience last year with Livengrin.  I loved Malvern.

I have 70 days of sobriety today.  The praise is that I had no thought of drinking when I got the news, which did bring me to tears.  I just have concern about the transition to a new facility.

Thanks,
Trish

The seventy days is amazing trish!  I'm sure with your determination you will do fine in a new group and it's a positive thing that although it took 2 hours, you found one.  Sometimes, even THAT doesn't happen, let alone be able to get into an intake by Friday and group on Monday.

Keep on keepin on!

Thanks Pam.  I got a lot of voicemails or told to call back during the business day today.  My problem is, I can't call from school due to privacy, or lack of it.  I was almost tempted to just give up on treatment and just do my AA thing, which I go to anyway.

Hugs,
Trish

Trish..  First of all CONGRATULATIONS on 70 days of sobriety.  That is WONDERFUL! 

There is absolutely NOTHING trivial about your request.  You were comfortable where you were and now you need to make a change.  That is big.   You can do this!! You are strong and can make this transition.  You have them, you have AA and you have US.  We are all here for you for whatever you need.

Thanks Lisa,
I still am very weepy about this.  I can't figure out why I am so emotional...it is certainly not PMS.  I know I am anxious about the transition, as I was able to get the intake appointment for Friday, but really am afraid of relapsing.  I know what I am capable of in the way of self-destruction.

I do have some good news that came my way in all of this...my munchkins are coming to town next week.  My daughter wrote me that she and the kidlets are traveling this way next week, and will be here for Easter.  I cannot wait to kiss that little guy's cheeks and spoil both of them rotten.

Thanks again.

Hugs,
Trish

Trish nothing wrong with that. When you find someone that you think is going to help you and get hopeful,,,and it is taken away? That is big. Part of what will help you is to keep an open mind, and allow them to reveal themselves to you. Congratulations on all your hard work

Thanks Nicole,
It took me a week at inpatient rehab to realize just how arrogant and narrow minded I truly am.  I do need to remind myself about being Honest, Open-minded and Willing as I work in my new group.  I am terrified of relapsing, and I know what I am capable of in the way of self-destruction, so I am going to cling to OH/PA, and my AA meetings for a very long time till I am comfortable in my new group, and then maybe I will still hold on, as I do not want to give up what I have.

Your clients are very lucky to have you.

Hugs,
Trish

thanks Trish....who knows what greatness is around the corner. This could be a blessing in disquise. If we say we trust our higher power. we also need to behave as if we really do. You will do fine, you have so much strength

Congrats on 70 days! That's awesome!!

I am sure that loosing your group is disappointing - it's nice when you like the support you are receiving. PLEASE continue with the new group, give them a chance. If you need to go out to your car at lunchtime and use your cell to make the phone calls.

Good luck and hang in there!

Liz