OT-Feeling so sad...

Good Morning Everyone,
As most of you know I was pregnant last year and had to make a decision not to proceed ahead with my pregnancy. I did not sleep all night because my son was due today. I am riddled with guilt and constantly second guess my decision. I cannot even tell you how haunted I feel on a daily basis. I am sitting here crying as I post this. WHY do I feel this way? I know my son is with god and he is his little angel and I know I have to forgive myself. It's just so hard no matter what my doctor tells me no amount of pep talks my mom and family give me nothing seems to ease this guilt.

I m sorry I am rambling and thanks for listening.

Sometimes only lots of Time can give you some resemblance of peace.  HUGS to you and allow yourself as much time as you need to grieve.  It has only been a short time for something like this. 

Love and Blessings to you.

Shilpa.. don't be sorry for coming to us for support.  You were not rambling.  I can understand why you are feeling the way you are.  It was a very difficult decision for you to make when you made it, so it is only natural for you to be feeling some guilt now. 

As you said, he is with God and is his angel now.  He is so much better off right now.  He would not have been able to live the quality of life that he deserved.

Hang in there sweety.. I hope you are able to find peace with yourself.   Talk to a therapist if you need to... or find a support group. I'm sure there is one out there to help you.

Shilpa,

I think what you are feeling now is completely normal.  I think we always second-guess the most difficult decisions we have to make.  Take the time to grieve for your son.  I'm sad for you today and sending you cyber hugs.

*hugs* hun. Unfortunately nothing that we can say will make you feel better. But know that we are here to support you and you made the decision that was right for you and your family.

Your baby is an angel now and you will get to see him in all his glory again!

Did you call and make your appt yet?????
Liz

Shilpa I am so very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the grief and agony you are still going through each day. So glad that you came here for support, please never hesitate to come to us. I know that you are a strong woman, and you and your husband made the decision that was right for you. Give yourself time to feel all the emotions that are natural. Don't hesitate to seek out professional help. Know that lots of hugs and prayers are being sent your way.

Shilpa -

Just a hug coming you way..... I'm sorry that you are sad.

Lisa

Shilpa,

Guilt will do some terrible things to us, even when we are positive we have done the right thing. I can't take the feelings away from you but hope you find some peace in your decision and are able to move pass these feelings.

Find love in yourself and those around you.

Lots of HUGS!

Hi Shilpa,
 I don't really know what to say to you on ths very difficult day in your life except that, you did the right thing for your situation. i understand the guiult but listen to us your friends and your family we will all help you get thru this, if you ever need to talk call me and ramble to me I will listen cause you are my friend & I love you and you need to come to the meeting tonight
. come on down and I will make you laugh,wait until u see my face you will be hysterical
HUGS Susan

Thank you all so much. I feel better already. I just don't know why I posted this thread. I just guess I was looking to ease a little of my pain. People here are so nice and I feel safe on this forum. Thank you for validating my feelings. Please know that I love each and every one of you and appreciate your support.  I am so blessed that I have this board to help me thru my upse and downs.