An honest update

I've been reconnecting with my Higher Power lately on a much deeper level than I have in a couple of years, really since my gastric bypass surgery.  I realized that part of my transfer addiction comes from a place of pride, vanity and lust.  The physical transformation I underwent translated into a radical personality change for me.  I stepped away from a lot of positive influences in my life (God, church, family, support groups) thinking I could make it on my own now that I had a body that allowed me to do things I could not before.  I wanted to enjoy my new body without anyone telling me what to do or how to live.  

2 1/2 years after surgery I am finally getting back on the track that I was on BEFORE surgery, which was personal emotional healing.  I really took a hell of a detour there, right into alcoholism.  I know now, though, that if I continue in recovery, working the 12 steps, trying to help others, living in Today, I can achieve my goals, and better yet, God's goals for me.

Thanks for letting me share where I am today.

Jill,

This journey is in no way easy. And many of us have struggled with various demons through the process. Thank you for sharing yours. It's important for all of us to remember that eliminating our physical weight issues can often times add to our emotional weight.

I don't personally know you but congrats on taking hold of your life and walking down the right path. I wish you peace, love and encouragement as you do this. And again, thanks for sharing.

 

 

Jill---I'm sooo glad you're taking the steps to get back on track!!! Lots of luck to you!!!

Jill,

I think you are courageous to share this aspect of your journey and I have seen a few folks get lost on this journey post-WLS.  I think we all have the demons from our past that resurface, after all, obesity, alcoholism, they are all just a sympton of an underlying "dis-ease" within our own selves.  It's why, I believe strongly that being grounded in AA has helped aid me along the way and continuing to utilize that program in addition to attending and participating as a leader in the support aspect of this journey has helped me some.  I get where you were and where you are, this journey called life is never without detours, just glad you found your way back!

Hugs, Laureen

Jill, many prayers of encouragement coming your way - Lord knows we all have our demons and facing them is a huge accomplishment in itself. I wish you all the best on your spiritual journey - I know you will not only survive but succeed as well.

Take care - Kathy

Thanks for sharing Jill

Jill, good for you. I've read your post a couple of times. It sounds as if you are back on a very solid path that will serve you well in life. The desire to do it ourselves...to do it our own way....will trip us up every time. A saying that I like is: "You can do it God's way...or wish you had." It's been true in my life for sure.

Thank you for sharing your struggles along the way. I am glad to hear that you are making progress and feeling better about yourself and your situation. Continued successing to you. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts.