It's Tuesday! And here's Roll Call.......
Today has me working 5-3:30ish
after work, gym
after gym, Siehara has counseling appt
That's my day
Good news, though.. they caught the ******* who shot the police officers in Washington state. It was just about 20 mins ago. He has been killed after family members allegedly were giving false leads. Thank goodness for small miracles. Those poor families of those officers. There is a lot of local support because of Officer Renninger.
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These officers being shot has really weighed heavy on my heart. I'm glad that the monster that did this is no longer on the loose in society. Shame on those family members that gave false leads. Someday they will have to answer to a higher power for their actions.
I really just don't understand what is wrong with people. They blame everyone but themselves for their troubled lives.
It's very sad. Particularly at this time of year.
Lisa
First off I want to say that the outpouring of support by all of the wonderful people I've met via OH has been absolutely incredible. I thank each of you from the bottom of my aching heart!
I am really trying to get through this, but I realize how much of my routine was around my boy and so when I woke up this morning, I really felt lost, as I would get up and if Dillinger was not on the pillow next to me, I would go down to where he was and snuggle up and spend time petting him and massaging his hind quarters to keep the blood circulating, as many years ago, I was told that it helped big dogs as they aged and it did seem to, as he never developed the hind leg problems a lot of dogs do. . . please forgive me, if for a time, I reminisce about my boy, but I'm really trying to focus on his life and not the end of it. . . I am raw with the emotions of not having him in my life now and while I truly know he had a long wonderful life, I am bereft without his love, because unlike human love, it was simple and unconditional, well mostly, if I tried to shorten the time I spent cuddling up, he sure enough let me know it (smile) and then there was the time I got a computer in the house, boy did he not like the time I spent on it. . . he would come over and nudge me and whine for me to get off and on the couch so I could be his pillow and give him some loving. . .
Ok, enough. . . I will be going to work and then I will take my gym stuff and go to the gym, something I have not done for a while (sorry Norm), I could not do it. . . so maybe, just maybe I will actually lose the last 10 lbs I want to. . .
Again, I thank you all for letting me know that you care about my pain.
Wishing you all the very best of days and if you are facing struggles, the strength to get through it!
Love, Laureen
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
I appreciate your compassion and caring ways and thanks for acknowledging my strengths.
Funny thing, lately, I hear people tell me how much I mean to them and as much as on some level that may be true, inside I feel like, they can't really mean it. When I was sharing with my guy last night how much love and support I have received, he told me that I need to believe that I deserve it because I give so much of myself to others and that in the time he has known me, he is continually amazed at how dedicated and much I touch the lives of others. I just do what makes me feel good and being there for others has always been something I loved to do, yet I never have felt that I do enough, how odd that is. . . I can give, but receiving still feels odd and I still feel very undeserving on some levels. . . but I am learning to accept and I thank you for always making me feel like I am someone who matters here (there are many here who do). . . silly me. . .
Anyway, thanks again! You're pretty darn special yourself!
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
