Surgery Tomarrow

Well the last time i posted, I wasnt sure weather I was going to be able to have the surgery due to my blood work. I retested and everything came back good. So, today will be my last day of work for a couple weeks, and tomarrow is the day.
   I am so scared and nervous. Up till this point, people have been concerned because I was so positive and excited about this. Well they shouldnt be now, cause I almost have myself sick thinking about it...lol. I TRUST my surgeon, I am pretty healthy besides my weight, I know everything is going to be fine. I am just having Jitters right? I just keep thinking about leaving my 3 babies. I almost feel like I am being selfish, that I want and need this so bad, I am not stoping to think about the what ifs and my kids. Someone please tell me this is normal, to go from cool, calm, and excited to totally freaking out...lol..
   Anyways, everyone please keep me in your thoughts and prayers, I will have my Husband update everyone tomarrow night when he gets home. Thanks everyone for your support and advice on this board. It has been a lifesaver!

Paula

You are going to do great! Look forward to hearing from your husband that you are on the losing side!

Paula,

Your going to do great.  Nothing much to stress over.

Keep your mind off things.  Perhaps a crossword puzzle.

Good luck tomorrow.
Geoff

Good Luck with your surgery

Ida

Congrats and best of luck tomorrow.  Speedy recovery and all that. 
I have a two year old toddler and I just knew that I had to go through with my surgery.  Because I wanted to be proactive about being around for him for as many years as I could. Being a mom makes us worry about everything. 

You are in my thoughts!!!

Good Luck Paula !  You will do fine.  Don't think about the what-if's. 
Best wishes,
Lisa

Paula,

Good luck. It's normal to be scared. Remember all of us here have gone through the exact same thing. So you are not alone. Did doc give you an Ativan or Xanax to take tomorrow morning? That helped me.

Hang in there today and remember that after tomorrow, your life will change forever. And it will be so exciting. You will do great!

Sending out prayers for you and your surgical team

Enjoy the journey

ellen

Paula,
From what I have heard this is common.  This is not really about being selfi****s about doing what you need to do to get healthy, and being there for your three babies.  I do not give thought to the what ifs yet, my thoughts are seeing myself standing on one side of a bridge, and the after surgery as being on the other side, although I can't really see what the other side of the bridge looks like, but I don't worry about going over the bridge, because I know it will be ok, if that makes any sense to you.
You are just having the jitters, everything will be "better" than fine.  Prayers and Good Thoughts coming your way.
Hugs Ena

Take a BIG DEEP BREATH!!, I have not gotten as far as you yet still waiting for ins approval, but when I get scared or nervous I try to remember why I want to do this, about trying to be healthy for the future to enjoy all the things we don't do now because of our weight.  My thoughts are with you, and I think sometimes you need to be not selfish but aware that you have needs and wants to, you have to LOVE yourself!!  Before you can give all of yourself to your babies.  Good Luck, I look forward to reading your updates!!  Again Congrats!!!!