"Unable" to relax? Kinda long

Alright...so I'm wondering if this is a problem...a transfer addiction...or just "OK" and I need to stop over analyzing my life

I realize that I'm probably the ONLY one who can answer this question when it comes down to it...but I like the opinions of all you, too!

In looking at my schedule for the rest of August I realized...holy CRAP we are busy busy BUSY this month.  Literally almost every single day off that I have we have something planned.  Some of it is fun....parties with family; friend gatherings; support group meetings some of it is my perdiem work in jersey; some of it is necessary such as Brian's many dental appointments/oral surgery; and some of it is helping people out such as house sitting for a friend and things like that.

I posted the other day about being THRILLED to be home on Friday all day w/ nothing to do but go food shopping.  And we had a lovely day....I slept for a good part of it...we went food shopping...I made dinner blah blah blah blah.  And then on Saturday evening after the party, when we came home we spent time together cleaning and organizing the rest of the house and stuff.  Keep in mind over the weekend when I was "not busy"...I also did laundry while watching tv, worked on a cross stitch, packed food for the week....needless to say I was never NOT doing something.

So...now I "tehnically" have Mon, Tue, Wed, Thurs off (from LVH)  Here's the schedule....
Mon:  blank
Tues:  Brian's dental appointment
Wed: Work in jersey at night (so need to nap in the evening, leave my house about 9pm....probably taking care of Brian for the majority of the day anyway after his appointment)
Thurs:  Spend day in jersey, work Thurs night in jersey, come home early Friday morning for work Friday night at LVH

So my question to Brian before I left was "What do you want to do tomorrow, we have nothing planned?"  And I got MYSELF thinking....is it just the extra energy I have that I am using....is it filling in the void of not eating, is it just my personality...or is that I truly don't know how to relax, or even feel guilty about relaxing (which I admit I do feel guilty on occassion if I haven't accomplished EVERYTHING.)  I'm not saying I don't enjoy my busy life....because I do....and we have a GREAT time together no matter WHAT we do....I just don't like to "sit" at home all day....

Thanks for reading...for all I know this could be just random ridiculous 3am thoughts that I will laugh at later......

Pam,
In reviewing your post, it seems to me that you fill your life with variety, some obligatory, other is just fun stuff. Unless you are miserable not having something on your plate, I wouldn't obsess about your lifestyle. You'll only know how you feel about downtime if you truly do allow yourself a few nonplanned days to truly do nothing but kick back and chill, perhaps with something cold in your hand to drink :}
Chris

True...it IS variety...and I think I need to actually force myself to not do anything for a few hours and see how I feel about it.  I do know I have hit burn out before...dont' feel that way right now, but also don't want to.  It's not a fun feeling as you know!  Something cold in my hand....hmmm....combine that with Norm's movie idea and the peach wine I have in my fridge and we might have a plan in place!

You're not nuts... :)


Take a "Bill Cosby" vacation and spend the day on the couch with the rented movie of your choice and a magazine or book to read.

Just veg out.

Everybody needs a day like that sometimes.


(I sort of had one yesterday - Trixie and I spent a lot of time in the A/C watching Family Guy dvds)

"rented movie of your choice"  Funny....on the way home today I thought about going to the store tonight and/or digging out a few movies we have here at home and watching them...regardless of what Brian thinks of them.

You and Trixie sound like you had a GREAT day!  Maybe me and my flippy will do the same sometime soon!

I feel the same way but I also feel that it is burning me out - I am trying to step it back but it never seems to happen. As long as you feel OK and well rested doing all you are doing I am sure that it is fine! Just make sure that you take time to re-charge too!

*hugs*

Liz

Yea....you and I are twins in that respect.  If there is a 'problem' it's that I don't realize I'm doing to much and burning myself out until I AM burnt out and hit misery.  Right now...I am getting enough sleep, having a great time, and enjoying all of it (with the exception of Brian's issues, of course....but hell, that's to be expected and taking good w/ the bad) but I've been to the point of burn out and don't want to get there......things to ponder

pam i have a few thoughts but they are way too involved to go into here.

Feel free to call me....or I will take some time and write it all down later. I think it is a little from column A and from column B

Kinda figured you would have something to add to this :)

Maybe I'll call you tomorrow evening assuming Brian is well medicated, LOL

I think its the excess energy that we're not used to. I don't feel like I have to have something to fill every day socially, but when I"m home I am constantly looking for something else 'to do' - even when I feel overwhelmed by always having something to do - did that make sense? I can relax for short periods of time but then I get 'restless ass' (my mother's term) and have to get up and do something. I guess it was all those years of not being able to do stuff and now that I can it feels so wonderful!! But I also like my relaxing times as well - last night I wanted a bike ride so I hopped on thinking I was going to go gangbusters, but ended up taking a very leisurely bike ride.

You're not nuts - just young and energetic!!