An-tic-i-pa-tion! (pretty long - sorry!)

Can you sing along to that word?  "An-tic-i-pa-tion" from the Heinz ketchup commercial?

Ok, so I'm having my surgery two weeks from tomorrow.  I CAN NOT WAIT!
I feel like I've been thinking about this for so long, researching, planning and dreaming...I just can't wait for the day to get here!  Also...I don't know if I'm happier to have the WLS or just to get my Gall Bladder taken out!  (Kidding , really - you can guess which is more exciting!)

Seriously, I think that these gall bladder problems that I've been having are a little gift from God...Sounds crazy?  In the back of my mind, I'd planned on eating (in moderation, of course) many things during these last two weeks that I know I won't eat in a long while.  Greasy, cheesy pepperoni pizza!  Yum!  Well, just the thought of the GB pains that I would experience from that are enough to keep me eating a low-fat, sugar free bland diet these last weeks!  I've come way too close to having to get it taken out...which might mess up my scheduled surgery.  It's killing me but I know it's for the best!

Before I'm done babbling about how much I CAN'T WAIT...I'll share a great little story. 
Today, I drove all over PIttsburgh with my mother-in-law looking for a fancy, size 18 dress for her to wear for a friends ritz-y wedding.  Along the hunt, we looked in a cute little boutique that specialized in plus size clothes.  They had the cutest stuff!  There were 2 things that I really wanted, but know that I can't justify buying this close to my life-changing surgery.  Funny, it felt good to not buy them, but sad to finally find such a nice store with great stuff beyond my reach. 

Then I stopped, woke up and realized...WAIT A MINUTE...am I actually feeling sad because I wont fit in plus sized clothes?  Am I insane?  The whole reason that I like these two items is that such pretty clothes are not available for large ladies!  Most plus shops are (forgive me - don't mean any harm by this...but...) they're full of "old lady clothes".  I'm 41, not 71.  I don't want to have my belly button hanging out like a teenager, but I also don't want to look like I'm dressing for the funeral home either!  Stop being so wierd and realize that soon you'll have your pick of fun clothes - in any store you choose to stroll into!  Ok!  That made me feel much better!

Hey - ONe more story...a "Wow" to share!

Today, drying my hair & looking in the mirror, I noticed my new "bat wings".  I believe that's what they call that nice flap you see when you raise your arm and see hanging skin?  Ok, So I'm looking at my "bat wings" wishing all that exercising in the gym would wipe those away.  Then, I saw the most amazing thing...I have muscles!  They gym is paying off.  Good thing there was no hidden camera in the bathroom.  One minute I'm flapping my "wings" and the next minute I'm making like Popeye, flexing my biceps in the mirror!   (I'm laughing so hard typing this...because these "muscles" were so tiny!  I think I was just amazed to see movement in that part of my arm when I tried to make a muscle.)  I was so excited, flexing left ...then right...grinning like an idiot!  What a howl.  I told my daughter (8 yrs) later and she cracked up!

So much fun!
So glad I've got you crazy souls to share these moments with! 
Can I say it one more time?   I CAN NOT WAIT!


Pat

I am happy that you are seeing BAT wings and a muscle from all the workouts that you are doing at the gym. I know you will do great after your surgery. Your ticker shows that you have lost 50lbs!! That is amazing. All I managed to do prior to surgery was 30lbs. I know what you mean about plus size clothing being made like mumu dresses. Been there done that. NEVER going back!! lol. This is one crazy, amazing and wild ride. We will move over and make room for you on the loser's bench. I am also 41 this July and people tell me that they would never have imagined that I weighed over 240lbs. You only have another 80lbs to go. You will do great in the meanwhile come here and post often and keep up briefed on your progress thru your journey.  I would not lie to you. You will miss your best friend FOOD but once you see those numbers go down the scale you will eat healthier and make exercising a routine. I never thought I would ever be a size 2-4 but a year and a half later I am!! Remember your surgeon is performing WLS on you not giving you a lobotomy.

You have me CRACKING up with this post, thank you so so much!!  you've come a long way already and will no doubt continue to be an inspiration to all after surgery as well.  Congratulations!  And keep making those muscles, baby!  Popeye ain't got nuttin on you!

Pam

you've earned that can of spinach!! You have the perfect midset for this surgery and are going to great!! Look forward to sharing in it with you!

Liz

What a great post!!!  Congrats on your surgery being so close!!!  You are gonna do great!!!  Believe me when you are out of the surgery and losing the weight you can "divorce" the plus size stores for good!!!  Yay for you!! You are going to do awesome!!! I was laughing so hard at the bat wings/muscle flex story!!!  

Laura