MY SECURITY BLANKETS
Okay Jena gave me the courage to post this one here we go. The other day I took inventory of what I can call my "security blankets" I can remember the "other Linda" who would try to dress really nice, get her nails done, pedicures, hair foiling and all of that stuff and use those things to divert attention to that part of me instead of the weight. I would hear wow she's so pretty for someone who is overweight and keeps herself nice. Talk about a twisted statement. And the other morning on my way to work not one but two cute guys held the doors open for me and today I went to the gas station and I swear to God a couple of guys flirted okay maybe were really nice to me where as before I was ignored. Well I still do some of those things but no longer use it to "hide" what I do not want noticed like my weight and am feeling alot better about myself as a person. I find that I am more friendlier and outgoing. They are looking at me the person not the weight or nails (which I don't have anymore and will treat myself to a pedicure) and it does feel good. I even have guys waving at me and actually checking me out. Is that crazy or what? Okay I admit I have a warped sense of humor and no one knows what to expect out of my mouth but its part of who and what I am. What a different place I am at in my life and I owe it to all of you out there for being there and for being supportive. You were there in the beginning of my journey and while I make this journey as I will be there for you. Thank you.
Well enjoy the new found attention and self confidence - you deserve it!
Liz
I know exactly what you mean- try to make every other part of you look great trying to overcompensate for the weight. I've done it a long time and fell like I've wasted a ton of money on products to make myself feel better, when its always been the weight.
Congrats on your new found confidence :)
